To Byul (Omegaverse)-Chapter 117: Why do I keep doing this to myself?

Kang-woo buried his face in Chin-hwa’s neck, sniffing in his leaking pheromones and then he began to kiss his neck.

’Just... What is he doing?’ Chin-hwa shivered. ’Kang-woo, just what are you dreaming about?’

For a sleeping person to act out this much and intimately, Chin-hwa began to wonder if he used to do this in the past but he never noticed because of how much of a deep sleeper he was.

No, this was no time to be wondering about such things. He needed to stop this. Who knows just how far he would go?

’I don’t mind being a bit more intimate, but we can’t do such things in his parent’s house, even though he’s not in his right senses. If we get caught, we will never be able to clear up the misunderstanding.’ he thought, barely able to push Kang-woo who was feasting on his neck. ’I guess... I have no choice but to wake him up.’

Chin-hwa pursed his lips. This was what he had to do. He didn’t even know who he was doing this with in his dream and yet he was the one who was receiving such treatment in real life.

’He seems to know so much about it.’ Chin-hwa thought, gripping Kang-woo’s shoulders hard. It suddenly began to hurt.

The fact that the person who Kang-woo dreamed of doing such intimate things to was someone other than him.

That nasty feeling was enough to give Chin-hwa the boost to wake Kang-woo up.

"Ka--" but before he could even call Kang-woo’s name. Kang-woo suddenly stopped.

It was such a timely intervention as if he knew he was going to be woken at that moment.

He released his hands from Chin-hwa’s waist and stopped moving, falling back into his calm sleep and leaving Chin-hwa so disoriented and confused.

Chin-hwa panted. His heart was pounding and he was out of breath. Just... What had happened?

He slowly and gently got out of the bed and went to the bathroom. He might’ve not noticed it while they were at it but what Kang-woo did made him hard.

But he did not go to the bathroom specifically to take care of his erection. He... Went to cry.

Even when he knows that things may never work out with Kang-woo and he has to resort to such schemes to be intimate with him, he knows he will never be able to reach his heart.

The person whom Kang-woo held so passionately in his dream and planted with kisses was not him. His heart hurt a lot just thinking about it and his feelings were crushed.

So, he cried as noiselessly as possible, covering his mouth with his hand to muffle his sobs.

"Why do I keep doing this to myself?" He asked and took his hand down to just get rid of his erection but his tears wouldn’t stop streaming down.

He thought of Kang-woo reaching down to his dick and helping him stroke it while planting those same soft and sensational kisses down his neck and he cried.

The feeling was pleasurable but at the same time, so painful that he couldn’t beat it anymore.

He couldn’t move on even if he wanted to. And each time he told himself it was time to move on, he needed to let go of his feelings... It only gave room to more desire and more torture.

Was he meant to suffer for love so much? Just what did he do? Was the crime of loving one’s best friend so great that he could only cry in silence and where no one could see him?

He was sad but it did not stop him from ejaculating. The sensation still filled his body so he was able to reach climax even when his heart wasn’t that much into it.

He wanted relief.

He returned to the bedroom after washing his face. He stared at Kang-woo sleeping so peacefully on the bed.

He walked closer and sat on the bed right next to him. His face wasn’t ordinary. It was as if he was made perfect for the sake of perfection.

’Mommy said no one is made perfect because, underneath all that perfection, there are flaws that they wish to hide.’ Chin-Hwa thought, slowly reaching his hand toward Kang-woo’s face and stroking his chin.

He had cried his heart out so now his heart felt heavy. 𝙛𝒓𝒆𝙚𝒘𝒆𝓫𝙣𝓸𝙫𝓮𝒍.𝒄𝒐𝓶

’So, Kang-woo... Is your flaw not being able to recognize that right next to you I feel very miserable for loving you?’ he thought, his eyes growing teary again, but he sniffed and cleaned them. ’I should get some sleep. It’s probably already midnight.’

He got up, only for his wrist to get caught by Kang-woo who had suddenly woken up.

"What are you doing?" He asked, but Chin-hwa stared at him, surprised. Why did he wake up now?

Kang-woo looked at Chin-Hwa’s face in the dimly lit room and asked,

"Were you crying?"

Chin-hwa fell silent for a second and then scoffed.

"Your eyes aren’t on right to be mistaking water for tears." He said. "For some reason, I couldn’t sleep so I went to wash my face." He cleaned his eyes. "I guess there were still a few water droplets from the water. It’s fine."

But Kang-woo could not be easily deceived. He suddenly pulled Chin-hwa down and hugged him.

"If you had a nightmare and cried because of it, you don’t have to hide it." He said, pressing Chin-hwa’s head to his chest. "I won’t make fun of you, you know that."

Chin-hwa stayed silent. A nightmare, huh? Guess this was similar to a nightmare. It was scary.

"You don’t have to act like you’re some prince charming," Chin-hwa said, lightly chuckling. "I’m fine," he raised his head and looked at Kang-woo’s face with a smile. "Really."

Kang-woo sighed.

"Then just go to sleep in my arms." Kang-woo said, once again pushing his head to his chest. "You said you couldn’t sleep so I’ll pat you till you fall asleep."

"Sure," Chin-hwa got comfortable. "Do what you want. I’ll try to fall asleep fast."

Kang-woo went silent, stroking Chin-hwa’s hair softly and patting his back. He shut his eyes tight, looking apologetic and regretful.

’I’m sorry, Hwa.’