The Prince Wants to Assassinate Me Every Day-Chapter 1039 - 630: Even

No more affection to speak of.

Bai Mowan laughed.

Laughing madly and desolately.

In her previous life, she mistakenly trusted a treacherous person, resulting in the execution of the entire Bai Family.

But in this life, why had she ended up like this again?!

Was it distrust? Or jealousy?

Distrust that even if Xiao Jinxing didn’t love her, he could still keep his promise to protect the Bai Family.

Or was it jealousy of An Ning’s talents, jealousy of Xiao Jinxing’s feelings for An Ning!

Bai Mowan wept, overwhelmed with grief.

"Xiao Jinxing." Bai Mowan called his name, her voice gentle and soft.

Xiao Jinxing responded.

"If I die, will you be sad?" Bai Mowan asked.

Xiao Jinxing replied coldly, "No."

Indeed.

If he would be sad, how could he kill her?

"You deserve death," Xiao Jinxing said indifferently.

As if he were saying it to himself.

Toward Bai Mowan... For some reason, even though the love long vanished, he found it difficult to face her death honestly, just like back then, whenever faced with the life and death of An Ning and Bai Mowan, he would instinctively choose Bai Mowan.

Bai Mowan’s death was also a relief for him.

From then on, he would no longer be bound by her.

"Did you ever love me?" Bai Mowan asked again.

Even at the end, she wanted to know the answer.

"Did you ever love me?" Xiao Jinxing replied with a question.

Bai Mowan’s heart tightened.

In her eyes flashed a confused and panicked expression.

"Upon reflection, I also never felt your love," Xiao Jinxing said coldly, his tone calm and steady. "When you were kind to me as a child, it was out of your kind-hearted pity. Later, when you suddenly claimed not to love Xiao Jinsen and favored me, it was because you saw through Xiao Jinsen’s true nature and needed my help to eliminate him. Then, after Xiao Jinsen died, you insisted on returning to my side to become the Imperial Concubine, in order to preserve the Bai Family’s power. Now that I’ve started to diminish the Bai Family’s influence, you are willing to do anything to overthrow my regime."

Bai Mowan’s face turned pale at Xiao Jinxing’s words.

Looking back on her life, this reincarnation, she did love Xiao Jinxing, but she wanted more to change the outcome of her previous life. She was so afraid of repeating the same mistakes that she became overly eager for success, placing power above love, which made her... so selfish.

"I suppose it’s even," Xiao Jinxing remarked indifferently, "Perhaps, I never loved you either."

Bai Mowan, with tears in her eyes, looked at Xiao Jinxing.

"Back when I was in the Imperial Palace, I was so lonely. There was no one by my side, and even my grandmother, who cared for me, had ulterior motives, seeing me as a tool for revenge, even as the culprit who killed my mother and crippled my legs. I never received any warmth until you appeared, bringing light to my dark and lonely nights, like a beam of white moonlight. So I wanted to protect this light, so she could always be happy and carefree."

Bai Mowan cried even more intensely.

Suddenly, she remembered the boy sitting in a wheelchair under a locust tree, admiring the moonlight.

Moonlight shone on his pale, almost sickly white face, a beauty surpassing all things in the world.

"Later, when you said you fell in love with Xiao Jinsen, I was indeed hurt, feeling like my piece of white moonlight had been taken away, leaving me alone again. Then, with An Ning’s sudden change, I became slightly intrigued by her. It was then that you confessed you liked me. I admit I was initially flattered and happy, but there was also an inexplicable sense of loss. It is only now that I realize that loss stemmed from having to give up on An Ning."

Bai Mowan bit her lip tight.

It turns out that even in a second life, feelings not cherished or the right person missed, will not wait for you in the same place.

Emotions can’t withstand torment.

Once disregarded, another will take their place.

"For you, I cast aside An Ning many times, almost causing her demise several times. Each time I let her go, I could feel intense pain in my heart, yet I always restrained and suppressed it for you. I even couldn’t accept myself falling in love with another woman besides you. I always thought I would love one person forever. I hated my father for favoring the concubines instead of spending time with my mother, who waited alone for him. As a child, I studied and practiced tirelessly, performing before my father just to keep him with my mother more. But unknowingly, my efforts caught the attention of my grandmother, indirectly leading to my mother’s death."

Xiao Jinxing spoke bitterly.

As if recalling all this was just a fleeting past.

He had completely let go of all those hatreds.

"As a child, I swore to only love one woman when I grew up, even if I avenged and ascended to the throne, I would never favor the concubines, wouldn’t allow concubines to fight each other for favor," Xiao Jinxing continued, "So when I started developing feelings for An Ning, I constantly restrained, forced myself, warning myself not to fall for her. I unwaveringly chose you over her countless times, even considering that if An Ning died and I was left with only you, perhaps I wouldn’t be so tormented."

"Yet An Ning managed to survive every time, living resiliently. She continuously showed me her courage, her selflessness, her brilliance. She was like the sun, burning in my heart, the flames growing stronger, impossible to extinguish," Xiao Jinxing looked at Bai Mowan, "Now I know, it wasn’t fickleness; my feelings for you were not love, just duty, just protection. For An Ning, it was undying love."

Undying love...

Bai Mowan wept bitterly, her sorrows overflowing like a river.

Actually.

She always sensed who Xiao Jinxing loved, didn’t she?

Loving someone wasn’t hard to see.

She just didn’t want to accept it, didn’t want to believe it.

Her pride didn’t allow Xiao Jinxing to love anyone else.

In her past life, Xiao Jinxing seemingly would’ve died for her.

In this life...

Why didn’t she let him make his new choice, fulfill his happiness, instead of repaying kindness with enmity?

She regretted.

Regretted not realizing sooner.

If she could keep her heart pure, see reality for what it was, and admit to being ordinary, perhaps she wouldn’t be in this situation now.

But heaven won’t give her a third chance.

It was her, who didn’t cherish well!

"The Bai Family, I’ve left it for you," Xiao Jinxing spoke at length, finally telling her what mattered most to her.

In Bai Mowan’s eyes, the tears seemed to shimmer.

"Your and Bai Moyi’s rebellion won’t affect the Bai Family’s reputation," Xiao Jinxing said coldly, "This is the last thing I can do for you."