The Lycan king-Chapter 86

*Leonora*

I watched Jax as he slept peacefully. I could hear little snores from him as he slept. He looked so peaceful, like there was nothing bothering him.

As much as yesterday was fun, there was still something on my mind. After the intense sex we had last night, a small part of me hope that I would finally get pregnant. I wasn’t sure if I was completely ready but I wanted to get pregnant. I didn’t want the council to see me as incompetent. This was the only thing they asked of me and I was yet to deliver. It wasn’t like we were abstaining, it was the opposite and we weren’t using any protection. It was making me wonder if I was the problem or not.

I didn’t know if I should talk to Jax about it. Maybe we needed to go To the hospital and check it out but it would also mean that I was implying that there was something wrong with him. 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎

We’ve had this discussion multiple times and most of it ended with him telling me that we should try when I’m ready. It felt like I was in a dilemma and I didn’t know how to solve it. How would I tell Jax that I wanted to have a baby but I wasn’t sure if I was ready to be a mother. It just made me seem confused and I didn’t want that.

"Baby." Jax called and I turned to him as he sat up. "Why aren’t you in bed?"

"Just thinking." I said as Jax got off the bed. He walked over to the dresser and sat behind me. He wrapped his arm around my waist and moved closer to me. "You can go back to bed. I’ll join you."

"No." He said as he kissed my neck. "I know when you’re over thinking and this is one of those times." He said and I sighed. "Tell me what’s going on. What is making my sweet, sweet Leo wake up very early."

He rested his head on my shoulder. On hand snaked its way over to my collarbone and he touched the small mark that was situated there. I brushed his hands off because he knew what that does to me.

"What if I can’t get pregnant?" I asked him and he looked at me through the mirror. "What if there’s something wrong with me and my body?"

"Is there a reason behind this thought because I thought we said we will wait until you’re ready?" He asked as I leaned back on him. I loved that he was someone I could lean on, figuratively and physically. "Baby, what’s going on in that mind of yours?"

"We haven’t used protection and I’ve never had a pregnancy scare at all. I don’t know. I, kind of, want to get pregnant but I don’t think I’m ready to actually take care of the baby." I admitted and he sighed. There was a bit of softness in his eyes. I knew he wanted children. He even joked that he wanted a full house on a number of occasions. "I’m kind of confused. Don’t mind me."

"I’m going to mind you." He joked. "The more you worry about it, the more you get worked up in your head and you wouldn’t enjoy sex with me anymore." He advised me. "Besides, what if now is not the right time and goddess is just waiting for the right time to bless us."

"Or what if, I just can’t carry a child? Haven’t you thought about that?" I asked and from the look in his eyes, he had. I turned to look at him as I didn’t want to look at the mirror anymore. "Why haven’t you said anything?"

"Because the problem might be from me? I don’t know. You haven’t been with anyone but me so if there’s anyone with fertility issues, it would definitely be me." He said and I turned back to look at him in the mirror as I didn’t want to strain my body. "How about we go to a clinic later in the day?"

"Are you sure about that?" I asked and he nodded. "Thank you."

"If we find out that we are okay, we’ll have to look for a protective measure in case." He suggested and I frowned. "What? You literally said you aren’t ready to take care of a baby."

"You’re right." I said. "But in the meantime, you look so good." I said and he smiled as he kissed my neck.

"Tell me more." He whispered in my ear. "I didn’t get to fuck in you in front of a mirror last night." I felt heat rush to my cheeks as his left hand went underneath my shirt. "Tell me what you want me to do to you." He said as his right hand went in between my legs. I moaned lightly, closing my eyes as he pushed his bulge against my back. He wasn’t hard yet but it never took him so long.

I didn’t know what to say to him so I just leaned into him and gave him more access to my neck. He kissed my mark and I moaned causing him to chuckle.

"Tell me what you want me to do to you." He said again but I was enjoying the little touches to answer. His fingers shifted my panties to the side as he slowly pushed his fingers into me. "Look at yourself." He ordered and I forced my eyes open. He was staring straight at me and it made me moan louder.

"Please." I begged, not knowing what I was begging for.

"Please what?" He asked. "What exactly do you want from me? Mention anything and I would give it to you."

"A car." I joked and his fingers stilled. "Please don’t stop. I was joking." I begged and he pinched my nipple.

"I’ll get you the car." He said as his fingers pounded into me.