The Lycan king-Chapter 61

*Leonora*

I knocked on Jax’s door wondering why it was locked. For whatever reason, I met his door locked and this was seemingly weird because during my stay in this room, the door was hardly locked. He preferred leaving it open, especially with Rachel sneaking in and out at night.

The door opened slowly revealing Jax’s worn out and disheveled face. I didn’t know why I was worried but true way his eyes dragged over my body, I knew something was wrong.

"Are you sick?" I asked as I stepped into the room. I entered into the room and everywhere was dark. He had closed all his windows and blocked any source of light from entering into the room.

"I stayed up all night watching a movie but I feel a bit sick." He said as he closed the door and walked over to his bed, diving underneath his blanket. "You can come over and join me, I won’t bite." I rolled my eyes at his comments. There was no way I would let him touch me inappropriately. Not when I didn’t know where he stood with us. I locked the door behind me and walked to my side of the bed. Am I allowed to say that?

My side of the bed.

"If you’re sick, I can give you some space and come back later when you’re better." I suggested but he shook his head as if to say no. I climbed into bed and he rushed over to me, resting his head on my breasts and cuddling me.

"I missed you so much." Jax muttered and I rolled my eyes. I placed my hand on his forehead to check his temperature and sure enough his body was hot. "You can’t leave today. Stay with me."

"Jax. We’ve spoken about this before. It’s not right." I said as I massaged his head making him hum in response.

"But I want you here with me. I’m sick and I need you here taking care of me." He mumbled against my shirt. I desperately wanted to tell him off and remind him of what he did to me yesterday but I didn’t want to have any drama with him. I just wanted to go to bed.

"I’m going to sleep." I mumbled as I shut my eyes, hoping that I would be able to fall asleep easily.

***

I jolted up from the bed, breathing deeply. I tried to rack my brain for what I had dreamt about but I just couldn’t remember. I turned to Jax’s side of the bed but he wasn’t there which was a bit strange. I climbed out of the bed and went over to the window. I opened the curtain and looked out, everywhere was dark out and there was no one roaming around, not even the guards.

I closed the curtain back and went back to the bed. I wondered where Jax was and what he was doing by this time of the night. The door opened and Jax walked in with a trolley of food.

"You must have been so tired. I’ve been gone for more than an hour." He said as he closed the door and pushed it over to the table. "I just got us so much food and snacks."

"Why didn’t you wake me up? I wanted to go back to my room." I said as he began to set the table and served our plates.

"When I woke up it was a bit dark out and I wanted to make us food. I was thinking if I come back, I’ll wake you up, we’ll eat and I’ll walk you back." He gestured for me to join him at the table. I got off the bed and walked to him. "Leo." He looked called me softly and turned to look at me. I tried to avoid his eye contact because I knew what would happen seeing as we were in close proximity.

"Claire sent the assassin after me." I blurted out. I didn’t know why it came out. I watched as his facial expression read from confusion and then to anger. He got up from his seat, walked a bit and took a deep breath.

"Leonora-"

"You call me Leo. Why are you calling me Leonora?" I asked and he scoffed at me. I was so used to him calling me Leo that hearing my full name sounded weird.

"Leonora." He repeated. "I totally understand that you have gone through a lot but to come and tell me Claire tried to kill you is insane." 𝒻𝑟𝘦𝘦𝘸ℯ𝒷𝑛𝘰𝓋ℯ𝘭.𝘤𝘰𝘮

I wished the ground would open up and swallow me. It was like we were back to the way it was. Our regular routine. There was no way he would tell me, or rather lie to me, that he was in love with me. There was no way I would believe him. How can I love someone that never listened to me? How can I love someone that was so trusting of his best friend and never cared about any other opinion. The same best friend that he was trying to defend me against in front of the council.

"Jax, I’m serious. Bethany told me earlier today." I said as I stood up and walked over to him. I tried to touch him but he flinched away from me. I hated this feeling. It was the same feeling I felt every time I was with Jax. This feeling of hopelessness and it constantly reminded me that I wasn’t enough for him. I wasn’t worthy of his trust or loyalty. Claire was. She had stayed by his side from when they were little. The one person who had been by my side since when I was little was gone, all because of Jax’s jealousy. Yet, he made me feel like I didn’t have any right to be jealous.

"I think it’s better you go to your room now." He said as he pointed to the door. I sighed in acceptance. I didn’t want to argue or prove myself to him anymore.

"I, Leonora, reject you, Jax."