Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 45: on the edge of madness

Jaehyun’s POV

One, two, three.

The ticking bomb in my head goes off with the countdown and my body tenses up, going into a state of fury.

One that I haven’t experienced in a very long time, one that has been revived by the ghost from my past.

Frustrated and helpless Jaehyun in the middle of his own home where all the power belongs to him, crying for help in the very place he should be prince.

"Come out!" I shout at the top of my lungs with rage burning inside me, the same acid I am trying not to spill all over Taeho is bubbling up, threatening to burn every last one of those old assholes who think my life is a chess board piece.

My parents have never forced anything on me, how dare they think they can have a say over a matter so delicate in my life?

"Jaehyun!" Taeho calls my name to silence me and I only lunge towards the door with even more angry determination.

I will make sure every last one of them eats their uncultured words like grass.

"I said come out!" I shout one more time, spittle flying out of my mouth and vein bulging in my head, my head hurts from the traumatic flashback but I won’t let it hold me back.

Not when everything I have stood up against is now trying to barge into my life like it never left.

Pure evil.

"Are you crazy?" Taeho finally shouts at me and I pause to look at him, seeing him clearly and hearing him clearly for the first time since I lost my temper.

"You can’t just demand your father to end the clan meeting with his men, respect the Lord" he says with a strong voice as he has my upper arm held firmly to keep me from lunging towards the door again.

My lips curl into a smile that I know looks deathly calm, but is a clear warning to my best friend, I dangle on the edge of fury.

"If they don’t come outside, I will give them a reason to" I growl the words lowly through my teeth, dead serious. I am more than ready to turn the whole place upside down until they do my bidding.

Till they all come running out of the big house with their tails between their legs and their bodies quaking with terror. I know they can hear me from in there, I just know it.

"Jaehyun, calm the fuck down, it’s just Sehwa" Taeho says to me and I shrug his hands off my body effortlessly, "watch your words now Taeho-ah" I say and I feel a familiar chill come over my body.

Tilting my head upwards, I take a deep grounding breath and deliberately roll my eyes to silence the icy voice of that Hwang Jaehyun, the version of myself that has fallen into the hands of insanity.

The Hwang Jaehyun that can raze this entire place to the ground while wearing a smile, and not break a sweat while at it.

My alpha is wagging his tail in excitement within me for it. Hating the idea of having anyone else that is not Yujun as ours.

The thought of Yujun causes me to exhale a large amount of breath.

’We have our omega’ my alpha claims and I don’t agree or disagree, we can’t claim him yet but he’s ours. I let out a deep growl and squeeze my fists shut.

How dare they?

Sensing the struggle within me to keep my sanity intact, Taeho sensibly takes two steps backwards and huffs at me from the safe distance.

"Don’t do anything stupid" he says through his clenched teeth, obviously nervous about my current state of mind.

"What’s more stupid than forcing my past in my face?" I ask him and he stiffens just like I did when Sehwa mentioned the incident that led to the fire.

"Jaehyun, it’s been seven years Jaehyun" Taeho says thoughtlessly and my smile widens as I nod in faux acceptance, "yes, seven years" I say calmly.

I want to bite into him as well and make him bleed the way I bled for months seven years ago. I want to drag him into the pit with me and make him see what I saw.

I want...

But he’s my best friend. He is Taeho the man that stood by me for years.

My personal assistant, my right hand man and most especially, my sworn brother. I know he means no harm, so I take one last cooling breath to shake the chill off me and to keep myself at bay.

It’s hard but I do it anyways.

"Don’t pull something like this again Taeho-ah" I say softly and he nods briskly without saying a word but has his mouth set in a thin line. Holding back the things he wants to say.

"I don’t want anything to do with that woman and if anyone tries to force something..." I say and end my sentence there, deliberately leaving the unfilled gap to Taeho’s own imagination.

If they bring this to my table and try to make it happen, I will make sure every single one of them face the exact same thing I faced.

"Jaehyun" Taeho calls my name as turn to leave, and I pause with my back to him, standing at the middle of the stairs that I was already walking down.

"I hope you know we love you very much" he says with pain evident in his voice and I take a long look over my shoulder at him, "I know you love me very much" I respond.

"Sehwa too, she loves you, don’t toss everything we once had" he says and I shake my head, "see you later Taeho" I say before keep moving.

I know she loved me very much, not even as much as I loved her but she did love me.

She loved me before she went mad.

Isn’t love a scary thing when it goes mad?