Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 44: Orange hues, hot walls

Jaehyun’s POV

"You don’t look so happy to see me" she says softly as her sweet smile eases off her face and I squeeze my fist to keep my heart in check.

Sehwa knows the power she has over me, she is standing here with a pure aura surrounding her, talking and looking like this, like everything I wanted several years ago...until the incident took place and her mask fell off.

"Yoon Sehwa" I say her name as calmly as I can manage with a nod of my head in her direction before turning to address Taeho. He was the one who wanted me here, he knows everything yet he called me here for her.

The alpha, my sworn best friend has his shoulder squared as he stands beside Sehwa with an unreadable expression, I refuse to read meaning to it and let the acid bubbling inside me spill over.

I meet his eyes and he meets mine, he seems guarded as he looks at me and I don’t want to push our already bending friendship even further.

Ever since I punched him for Yujun back in Hwangyeon, we have been tiptoeing around each other and I don’t want to make it any worse.

"I came because you asked, Taeho. I won’t do more than this" I say to him and walk forward to go into the house, but Sehwa stops me by clinging to my arm.

"Hyun-ah, please..." she says and looks up at me with her blue eyes swimming with tears, "I...I need you" she says, "save me" she adds and my brain goes off.

Going right back to seven years ago.

"Hyun-ah!, please I need you, save me" younger Sehwa’s voice fills my head, an echo from a memory I have spent my life since then trying to keep buried.

"Get your hands off my son right now" my mother’s voice booms strongly from the door and he storms out of the house with a growl rumbling in his chest and his teeth bared, ready to defend his pup.

"M-mother!" Sehwa screams in surprise as my mom yanks her off me and snarls at her. "You lost the right to call me by that title years ago" mom says and hides me behind her back.

"I’m sorry" Sehwa bows her head and as streaks of tear runs down her face and her lips tremble, "I..." she tries to speak again but bursts into tears and Taeho hugs her.

"Really? Are you going to let it happen again? Did you forget how I begged you to save me and you ruined my life" Sehwa sobs into Taeho’s chest and his eyes widen, just like myself, he didn’t expect her to reference that day like this.

A force of air leaves my lungs as the muffled words land against my chest, rivaling the hardest blow I have ever received in my entire life as the son of a mafia ruler.

"Get her out" mom hisses coldly. "Get her out right now" he growls lowly and Taeho gives me a dirty look as he steers her away with him, whispering words of comfort and encouragement as they leave.

My face is as blank as my mind. Gone. Around me, everything feels like it’s covered in smoke even as mom touches my face and speaks softly to call me back.

My alpha is going wild inside of me in rage but my human body has gone on lock down instinctively.

I can’t hear anything, I can’t see anything.

The only thing I know is that the house is on fire and I am in it, all alone, looking at Sehwa through the glass window with a black keg of gasoline in one hand and a handmade torch in the other.

She is dressed in white as she watches me burn.

"Son, my son, breathe...look at me" my male omega mother says and pats my cheeks repeatedly, "my baby, look at mom, mom is here" he urges and I wheeze as I feel my lungs finally working.

"That’s right, breathe..." his gentle voice encourages while he breathes in and breathes out to show me how to do it, and I nod my head, following his breathing pattern.

How can someone so innocent be that dangerous?.

"I didn’t know she was here" mom says and I hear the pain in his voice as he speaks, "how did she even get in here?" He asks angrily and I let out a heavy breath.

"It doesn’t matter, Taeho will handle it" I say, even though I know Taeho and I are at a tipping point in our relationship, Sehwa’s arrival is something that can either make us or break us.

"Where is dad?" I ask and blink my eyes to clear my sight, my brain is still supplying smoke instead of the clear air in the surrounding.

"He is in a meeting, Jaehyun...you don’t have to come in if you don’t want to" mom says and blocks the doorway. My alpha whines in satisfaction of the protection of our head omega’s protection.

"How long will I run from home because of it?" I ask myself and my mother, and I see the pain flash through his face, the regret of not being there to protect his pup when the incident happened.

"I can’t keep letting it control me" I whisper and mother sighs. "It’s not controlling you, it’s protecting yourself from evil. Jaehyun, my pup, what happened to you is not something that happens to everyone and they recover with a good heart" he says.

I hear footsteps from inside and the door swings open, it’s Jisung hyung and he doesn’t have a smile on his face even when his eyes lands on me.

"What now?" Mom asks with a sigh and his hand still on my arm, "we need you, things are getting out of hand in there" he says grimly and mom gives me a careful look, "don’t come in" he orders before going into the house.

I glare at the door like it is my personal rival, and maybe it is.

The door that holds countless of buried memories that I never want to relive again. My alpha growls defensively as I take a step towards it.

Mother says not to come but I am Hwang Jaehyun, I will only submit to who I choose to submit to, not some blurred memory from seven years ago.

Stubbornly, I silence my alpha’s warning howls and push the door open, the second I step in, the white and gold interior of the home turns into a furnace and I gasp harshly, only for thick smoke to clog my throat.

"Hwa-ya!" I call my first love’s name desperately and reach out as the flames lick through the house quickly and my eyes burn from the heat.

I am suffocating and she’s not doing anything about it.

Sehwa is standing right outside the window with her eyes wide open and her angelic face blank, she looks beautiful even as the flames cast an orange hue around her, giving her the image of a devil in disguise of an angel.

"Sehwa please!" I cry out but she doesn’t speak, she just watch as the fire increases and she walks forward slowly. Thinking that she is finally going to save me.

She uncaps the gasoline keg and pours the content out in front of the window where I am standing begging her.

I am too stunned to believe that my own Sehwa would do this to me, the girl I had given my heart is burning me down without a second thought.

"Please..." I wheeze one last time before falling to my knees on the hot floor, the roar of the flames in my ears are scary and heart stopping.

"Please..." I call again and I see my mother through the window running towards the house with Taeho close behind him, I don’t know what they are saying or doing, my legs give out before I can do anything else and my lungs shut down.

"You stupid jerk!" Taeho’s angry voice says and I feel my body being forced out of the house. He looks at me with wide and angry eyes and he fists my collar as my legs give out and we both fall to the floor.

"What are you doing? Have you gone mad?" He shouts in my face and I can only blink at him, "huh?" I ask dumbly, unable to register why he’s mad.

"Stand up you bastard!" He hisses and pulls me up to my feet. I let him drag me around as my body sways.

"Do you know how many stupid nights I had to watch you bleed mentally till you moved out of here?" He asks and shakes me, "why would you come in?" He roars at me.

"You, why would you call me?" I ask him and he releases his grip slightly, "to warn you...the clan elders are demanding your marriage" he says and the eyes that were once holding mine fiercely drop to the floor.

"I’m not getting married to anyone, plain and simple" I hiss and he lifts his eyes.

"To Sehwa, Jaehyun. A marriage to Sehwa" he says and my breath stops.

"Call them all out. Now." I growl.