Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 139: Perfect puzzle piece

Jaehyun’s POV

I breathe a sigh of relief, it’s better now, he smells better now...like me.

Choi Yujun makes for the door to leave my room, now dressed in my clothes and leaving that alpha’s clothes on the floor.

My hoodie and pants look bigger on him, but it sates my alpha, he pauses at the door and slowly turns his head to look at me again.

I tilt my head at him, not wanting to leave but at the same time, not wanting him to stay.

I won’t be able to stop myself from begging him to choose me if he stays.

I won’t be able to stop myself from locking the door and throwing away the keys just to have him here with me for as long as possible.

"Jaehyun..." he says my name quietly, and I curse under my breath, "fuck...Junnah" I say, already knowing what would come next.

But as his shoulders drop and his scent sours slightly, I don’t bother with trying to stop myself as I surge forward to hug him to my body.

I can’t make him cry, dress him up, upset him again and send away like this.

We might be having a rough time right now, but he still remains the love of my entire life, my precious.

I feel the way his body shudders when his cheek rests against my chest, and I sigh the second his jasmine scent blooms into something more sweet, something more at ease.

My alpha howls with happiness and my scent also floods the room, making the whole place to smell like what heaven feels like...love, jasmine, patchouli and milk.

I bury my fingers in his hair to keep his body closer to mine, I need him more than I’m letting myself take.

Fuck, I’m already doing too much by letting myself hold him like this, I want to protect us...I want to know where his love stands.

Does he truly want me as I want him? I want to fight for him, but I need to know, is he willing to choose me when I choose him?

I won’t let us hurt each other for the hundredth time...there’s too much at stake now...our growing pup, our warring families.

"We’re doing it again" I say but he doesn’t respond, "we’re playing with fire" I say and he tries to step away, but I don’t let him.

"Isn’t it a good thing that I never stopped" I say and he relaxes again.

"Jaehyun" he calls my name gently, I feel the heat of his breath warm my neck, and I hum in response.

The omega wraps his arms around my waist and presses even impossibly closer, so close that I feel the press of his bump against me.

It makes me whine in my throat as my alpha howls again.

"Don’t let me go" he says and I nod my head, letting my chin to rest on his head.

"I am yours; I will do whatever you want me to do Yujun" I remind him, meaning it now more than ever.

Signing up for a potential heartbreak, I just know this will hurt worse than the last, but I am willing to dive deep.

Does he know that I will die for him?

"Good, then don’t let me go...I beg you" he says again.

The smell of milk is prominent in the room and I love it, the presence of our pup, the magic of our dangerous union.

"You should go to sleep" I say to him, and he hums but doesn’t move out of my arm, neither do I release my arms around him.

I like holding him a bit too much...

"Can I stay here?" he whispers and I move away from him immediately to carry him bridal style to my bed. He makes a noise that sounds almost like a squeak before wrapping his arms around my neck.

"You, really!" he laughs and hides his face in the crook of my neck as I walk to the bed.

My heart is pounding at the way he’s holding on to me, and my alpha is wagging his tail like an overgrown puppy that receives the praise of his owner.

My bed is filled with all the soft things I had piled together when I was missing him, for some reason, it felt comforting to put together all the soft things I could find.

I had gathered things, from pillows to my hoodie to my shirts to keep myself from going mad while I waited for him to come back to me.

"What’s this?" Yujun asks as I lay him down in the middle of the bed.

My alpha lets out another howl of victory, like the piece that completes the puzzle we are building just slid into place.

Perfect, beautiful and white haired...should be mine.

He stretches his hand to feel the softness of the materials he’s lying on with a dreamy look I’ve never seen on his face before.

I pay attention to his eyes, those eyes that used to look dead and lifeless now look soft, not quiet as full as life as they were when we were together but close.

"What are these, Jaehyun-ssi?" he asks with a small smile.

"I went crazy when you weren’t here" I say and he turns to lie on his side, burying his face in my hoodie, "I could sleep for days here and be happy" he says and I kneel by the bed.

He doesn’t move for a second and I smell the way his pheromones mellow out, softening as his breathing slows.

Oh...he has fallen asleep.

’Our omega must have been stressed a lot today’ my alpha says and I hum in agreement, folding my arms to use as a pillow.

He looks so comfortable that I don’t want to climb in and bother his rest, at the same time, I don’t want to leave him alone when I just got him.

I let myself fall asleep by the bedside, happy to have my pregnant Junnie again and dreaming about feeding him a healthy breakfast in the morning.

I’m so sure my mom will have the time of his life feeding Yujun.

Sleep takes over me easily for the first time in days and when I wake in the morning, the smell of milk and jasmine is still in the room.

But the one who carries the smell is gone.

Fuck my life.