The Lycan king-Chapter 45

*Leonora*

I was done eating and Luke had taken our plates back to the kitchen. I laid down on the bed, staring at the ceiling. It was crazy how my life had come to this. Here I was in a different pack, still thinking about Jax. I wish I could let go of whatever hold he had on me. I wondered what he was up to, most likely planning his wedding with Claire. I could already see the smile on her face as she tried on her dresses, the fond looks he would be giving her, the nasty looks that she would be giving all the women around Jax. Honestly maybe it was for the best. Maybe I wasn’t fit for that lifestyle. Maybe Jax was ultimately right- I wasn’t queen material. 𝓯𝓻𝒆𝙚𝒘𝓮𝙗𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝒍.𝙘𝓸𝙢

I had never thought farther than just dating Jax and maybe that was where my problem lied. He needed someone that would be stricter. He needed someone that would have the energy and strength to handle pack duties while he focused on other things. That certainly wasn’t me. It was Claire. She had literally spent a good portion of her life working for Jax and she definitely fit the role.

It felt good admitting the truth to myself. Yeah, it hurt but it was way easier to just admit the truth than to carry so much anger in my heart. There was no way I would be able to move on with my life and find someone new if I still carried so much baggage. If Jax can want someone else like Claire and still have a play thing, I could move on.

I could be free and move on. I could be my own person and maybe fall in love with someone who would treat me like a decent person. Someone who would buy me flowers just because. Someone who could hold my hand in public and shout to everyone that he was in love with me. Someone who just loved me for me. Someone who would look at me like I was special, like I was the most beautiful girl in the world.

Luke walked into the hut, distracting me from my thoughts. He walked over to the bed and sat by my feet. "I have a deal I want to offer you."

I sat up and adjusted until I was seated with my back resting on the wall. "Yeah, what is it?"

"I want you to join my team. We have plans to take over Jax’s pack and you could help us seeing as you know more about the pack than most of us here." He started. "In return, I’ll give you a place here. As my Queen. I will protect you and take care of you. I promise that I am not like him." I looked at him dumbfounded by his announcement. I honestly wasn’t expecting it. There were so many reasons why I couldn’t accept his offer. First of all, I was still Jax’s mate and I didn’t know anything about Luke. Just because he saved me wasn’t enough reason why I should accept a relationship from him. There was so much conflict of interest and I didn’t want to be in the middle of their fight.

"What happened with you and Jax? You never really told me what happened." I asked and he sighed. He looked over at the wall as if he was in a trance and I leaned closer, interested in what he had to say.

"I was meant to be the next in line to the throne but he kept talking about how I wasn’t worthy to be King because he spent more time training than I did. He contested for the position and we were tested. I still remember everything. He kept cheating but I didn’t want to point it out because he was my brother. My baby brother. He ended up winning and his first task was to banish me. That day, I lost everything. There was this girl I liked, I don’t even remember how she looked like." He said and finally turned to me. His eyes were dark and carried a lot of emotion. I wanted to hold his hands and tell him that he wasn’t alone and that he didn’t need to carry the burden alone- things I needed someone to have told me a long time ago but I didn’t. He was hurt, just like me, and trying to get what was rightfully his. "Please join me to take him down."

"If I do it, you have to promise not to hurt Jax. Jax doesn’t need to be hurt. I know you may feel like hurting him but I won’t accept it if you’re going to hurt him." I said. "As much as he has done a lot to me, I don’t want anything to happen to him. Take his pack but leave him out of it."

"That’s fine." He said as he held out a hand for me to shake. I took it and we shook hands. There was a glint in his eyes as he smiled. "My Queen." He said as my cheeks reddened from his words. "You know, we would be sharing this bed, right?" He asked and I frowned. I didn’t think that through. After spending the amount of time, I spent with Jax, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to stay with Luke. I didn’t want a repeat of what had happened with Jax. But Luke wasn’t like Jax. He had shown that with his actions and words that he would never be like Jax. He was a lot softer, calmer. He held my hand in the public- something Jax could never do.

It was crazy that someone like Luke was related to Jax. How did the moon goddess create two polar opposites and made them brothers?

"I don’t mind. As long as you keep your hands to yourself." I said as I let go of his hands and he smiled sheepishly.