Peaceful Farm Life-Chapter 1883 - 1884: Heart Also Hurts

At the end, Su Yi Jing ground his teeth in anger.

His fury made his eyes bloodshot.

His eyes looked like they were stained with blood, frighteningly intense.

Even, he lost all reason due to the burning jealousy.

Feng Feiyan was especially scared, but having been pampered since childhood, she was no match for Su Yi Jing and thus truly became Su Yi Jing’s woman.

Afterward, there was a deathly silence.

Su Yi Jing sat there in a daze, unable to regain his senses for a long time. He never expected that he would be Feng Feiyan’s first man.

Watching Feng Feiyan curl up in the quilt with her back to him, Su Yi Jing pressed his lips together tightly, unsure of what to say, or how to even begin.

His emotions were complex.

His expression was complex.

His eyes revealed even more complexity.

How could this be...

How could it be...

Wasn’t Feng Feiyan frequently visiting Zou Qian’s palace before he came? Then how...

Feng Feiyan was feeling unbearably uncomfortable; she wanted to get up, wanted to leave, but he wouldn’t let her go, wouldn’t let her leave. Now she was somewhat afraid to go, so she simply lay there, calmly curled up. The tear stains on her face had long been wiped away, she wanted to cry but couldn’t cry anymore.

This wasn’t what she wanted, but it happened anyway.

She actually wanted to curse, but didn’t know what to curse about, always feeling as if she brought this on herself. Yet, she still didn’t regret meeting Su Yi Jing.

Even though today’s events were very unpleasant, making her heart feel icy cold, she still felt that the days with Su Yi Jing were her happiest and most joyful.

Su Yi Jing finally recovered from the shock, feeling both elated and deeply guilty, and quickly apologized to Feng Feiyan: "Qingqing, I’m sorry, I didn’t know, I thought... I thought... I’m sorry... I’m sorry... I’m sorry... I’m sorry..."

Unsure of what else to say, Su Yi Jing could only apologize repeatedly to Feng Feiyan, saying he was sorry.

Feng Feiyan had been very calm, but when she heard Su Yi Jing call her Qingqing again, her heart ached and she blinked. Then she returned to an extremely calm demeanor as if all that happened had nothing to do with her.

Su Yi Jing would rather have Feng Feiyan yell at him or hit him than see her like this, which made him even more guilty and anxious: "Qingqing, are you ignoring me?"

The tone was truly panicked.

There was an undertone of deep fear.

He feared Feng Feiyan ignoring her.

He was truly scared.

Feng Feiyan had never ignored him before, no matter how unpleasant things got between them, she never ignored him, but the current state of Feng Feiyan scared him, as if he would lose her forever.

When Su Yi Jing suddenly grabbed her hand tightly, Feng Feiyan glanced down at her hand held by Su Yi Jing, then finally turned to look at the flustered Su Yi Jing, hesitated a bit, but ultimately shook her head slightly at him.

In the end, she couldn’t bear to treat him this way.

"I’m not ignoring you, I just don’t know what to say," she said softly, clearly trying to soothe him. After a pause, she couldn’t help but add, "Now, you’re becoming less and less like the Yi Jing I knew."

The Yi Jing she knew, should not treat her like this.

Shouldn’t treat her like this either.

Su Yi Jing, seeing that Feng Feiyan was willing to talk to him, let out a big sigh of relief. After a while, he lowered his voice in self-reproach: "It’s not about becoming less like myself; actually, I haven’t changed. It’s just that I was too angry, too jealous, and spoke recklessly and acted with such extremity."