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MTL - Pretend To Be a Boss-Chapter 394v2 a name that cannot be written
Chapter 394 A name that cannot be written
Six hundred and sixty-four days.
Tang Xian wrote down Yuan Wu's name.
From now on, he can no longer guarantee the logic between memory and memory. The deeper the contact with the person, the more associated memories.
The brain will make a person as logical and self-consistent as possible, making the memory seem logical, so Tang Xian's memory at this time has begun to become distorted and chaotic due to the lack of too many people.
But Tang Xian's **** really started at this time. He had already reached the core area, but he didn't want this area to be too big to imagine.
On this day, he found six goals.
There was only one road sign. He wrote Yuan Wu's name. After writing it, he looked at those two words and felt at a loss. Who is this person?
What kind of experience does he have with himself?
Tang Xian couldn't remember.
He was afraid of this feeling, and walked into the depths of the ruins, and the sinister intentions of the Lord of Eden were slowly revealed.
This is an illusion, but it can lead to the real world, where the real body of the Lord of Eden is hidden.
All these are inducing Tang Xian to go deeper.
After going deeper, I discovered that this is a trap, a trap that cuts my memory into multiple parts irregularly, and then discards it bit by bit.
Even so... Taking advantage of the gambler mentality, the Lord of Eden got Tang Xian deeply involved.
Tang Xian may have had the idea of retreating several times, but the final choice was to continue exploring. This has nothing to do with whether Tang Xian is a gambler, but Tang Xian's purpose is very clear, and he has always been a person who does not waste resources. If memories are resources, he does not want these memories to be lost in vain.
It's just that all kinds of mentality are calculated by the Lord of Eden.
Tang Xian felt that he could understand the Lord of Eden, and the Lord of Eden could also understand Tang Xian.
At least in this duel, Tang Xian lost again and again.
The remaining five blank road signs, he didn't even dare to write his name.
During this day, Tang Xian did not move on, but chanted the remaining names that he could use.
He said it over and over again.
When a person is in a desperate situation, apart from the resources for survival, the most precious thing is the hope in his heart and the memory of the past.
Hope disappears little by little.
Memory is running out.
On the six hundred and sixty-sixth day, Tang Xian wrote down a few more names.
Akas and Song Que are among them.
He only has the last few names left, and it seems that there is still a long way to go before finding the real body of the Lord of Eden.
In the place where fantasy and reality are intertwined, Tang Xian found a cave.
"Qi Yuan, Zhong Yao, Yan Xiaoling, Li Xiaoyu, Tang Jing, Qi Yuan, Zhong Yao, Yan Xiaoling, Li Xiaoyu, Tang Jing, Qi Yuan..."
In the dark cave, Tang Xian chanted these names over and over again.
The night passed quickly, the sun shone into the cave, and also shone on Tang Xian's unshaven face.
He seems to be a prisoner who has been in the prison for a long time without tidying up.
Beards began to grow on his face, and his hair became messy.
Obviously a body of consciousness, but in this special domain, everything becomes very real.
Tang Xian stared at the front without moving for a full two hours, his eyes that used to be lively now seemed dull.
The lips are still shaking, and the names can be vaguely heard.
He finally stood up.
He couldn't remember many things anymore, but he knew in his heart that someone was waiting for him in Baichuan City.
There is a deformed world waiting for him to save.
His steps became heavier and slower, but he kept moving little by little.
When memories dissipate, when hopes melt away, whether a person can persist in reaching the initial destination depends on will.
The sun suddenly disappeared, and the sky was overcast.
After more than 600 days of exploration, Tang Xian has already walked out of the most dangerous climate chaos zone. Those ancient fierce beasts created by the consciousness of the Lord of Eden are also much less.
But occasionally there will be a time like today, when it suddenly rains cats and dogs.
The mountain road is muddy, and those shadow-like humans seem to be unable to feel the change of the weather, and they are still talking on the road.
Are they still human now? Are they still conscious?
The arrangement of the Lord of Eden for human beings is to turn human beings into this form of reality and fantasy intertwined?
Tang Xian became more and more afraid. Was he facing a creature in the traditional sense?
This monster named Lord of Eden can already affect reality, so how can I defeat it?
"Qi Yuan, Zhong Yao, Yan Xiaoling, Li Xiaoyu, Tang Jing, Qi Yuan, Zhong Yao, Yan Xiaoling, Li Xiaoyu, Tang Jing, Qi Yuan..."
Thinking about these questions, he didn't stop chanting these names.
Soon, Tang Xian came to the road sign.
It was time to make a decision again, and he had to lose another person's memory.
A painful expression appeared on Tang Xian's face, which seemed a little confused. If Li Xiaoyu was here, he would definitely hug this man very distressed.
Because Tang Xian has never been so helpless before.
He wrote down Tang Jing's name.
Zhong Yao was still waiting for him. He remembered that he had made an agreement with Zhong Yao to take Zhong Yao to meet a person, a relative, but Tang Xian no longer remembered who that person was.
Yan Xiaoling has always been a piece of pure land in his heart, and Li Xiaoyu may be the person who loves him the most in this world. Tang Xian didn't want to forget these people.
As for the divergent source.
Tang Xian was completely out of hostility.
In the face of the enemy, you may forget your comrades-in-arms, but you must never forget the enemy. The existence of Qiyuan almost ran through Tang Xian's life, and even the entire pyramid civilization.
She is not even as good as those who have forgotten in Tang Xian's heart, but Tang Xian understands that he must not forget Qi Yuan.
Six hundred and seventy days, as far as the eye can see, the world is like an endless night.
During the four days of ignorance, Tang Xian seemed to hear the baby's laughter.
There is irony and mockery in this laughter.
Tang Xian couldn't cheer anymore, because today, he wrote down Yan Xiaoling's name.
Santa Claus' gift was destroyed by his own hands. Before writing down his name, he was in great pain. And when Yan Xiaoling's name became unfamiliar, Tang Xian suddenly found that many things became indifferent.
Why do you want to save the world?
What has it given itself?
The pain and confusion on his face gradually disappeared, and the expression on that face became ferocious and gloomy.
There are still three people in memory.
Zhong Yao, Li Xiaoyu, Qi Yuan.
Zhong Yao or Li Xiaoyu, these two names should be absolutely impossible for Tang Xian to write down.
But after the memory of Yan Xiaoling disappeared, Tang Xian seemed to have changed.
His heart became indifferent, and everything in the world seemed meaningless.
He showed a playful smile, and now he seemed more interested in this challenge with the Lord of Eden.
This fictitious land seemed to become interesting again, and he once again had the motivation to explore the ruins.
With no mental burden, Tang Xian's observation ability seems to have improved.
So he quickly found the next road sign.
Follow the baby's laughter. He doesn't care who is missing from his memory now, he just wants to crush the head of the Lord of Eden.
Almost without any hesitation, Tang Xian wrote down Zhong Yao's name.
He felt that he had lost something in his heart, but what had he lost?
The world is big, but no one loves himself. People like me don't deserve to be loved.
Tears welled up in his eyes, it was inexplicable, Tang Xian was clearly grinning, like a demon with no temperament. But he couldn't stop the tears.
He was dazed for a few seconds, shook his head, and walked towards a certain lake. He cleaned himself up without haste, shaved off his beard, and cut his hair.
The dust on his face was wiped away by him one by one along with many unnecessary emotions.
Tang Xian seemed to have turned into a calculating noble son.
The look in his eyes is very similar to the children of order in the past.
His pace is getting faster and faster, and the shackles in his heart are getting less and less. Once he is free of the shackles called "human nature", his thinking will become more open.
Emotions can make people know fear, and they can also make people realize courage.
But there are also many lunatics in this world who never know fear. Since there is no fear, naturally there is no need for courage.
This is the case with Tang Xian now. His lack of emotion is serious, but because of this, the mental torture that the Lord of Eden is trying to create no longer hurts him at all.
Tang Xian turned his head and looked at the signposts with strange names written on them. He was a little puzzled. How could he walk so slowly and struggle for so long under a signpost? Why?
So the former self was so weak?
This is just another kind of maze. If it was me now, it would definitely not take so long to get here.
Names that don’t make sense—what’s the point?
Tang Xian let out a wanton laugh, feeling that he is now invincible.
There has never been a moment when my heart is so full of desire for destruction and destruction as it is now.
In the heart of the ruins, Tang Xian finally came to the last road sign.
The baby's cry was no longer a mockery, but a bit of doubt, even a trace of fear.
It's very close, Tang Xian believes that maybe after writing this road sign, he can find that damned Lord of Eden.
He's gotta screw that baby's head off so it can't laugh anymore.
Tang Xian thought so, but his hands stopped.
"Of course I want to write about Li Xiaoyu, that crazy woman."
Qiyuan is also one of the targets he wants to destroy. Tang Xian doesn't want to forget about Qiyuan, because no one loves his world, so someone must want to kill him, right?
Otherwise, how lonely is this world alive?
But when Tang Xian's hand touched the road sign, he found that he couldn't write at all.
"Damn! Damn!"
Tang Xian angrily raised the stone and hit his hand fiercely. Like teaching a coward a lesson.
There are not many memories of being with Li Xiaoyu, and even the time spent together is not as good as some people Tang Xian has forgotten.
He thought that he had no weaknesses, and now he was waiting to reach the end of this chess game and reap his own fruits.
But the hand couldn't move, as if what was about to be written was a curse.
Tang Xian's expression became confused.
It looks like a drowned girl many years ago.
Crying, laughing, anger, astonishment, many emotions were spread out on this face.
At first, I thought I would never feel fear again, but the panic in the sea of consciousness, the voice that kept warning me, seemed to tell me that I must not write this name!
Otherwise, there will be eternal doom!
Tang Xian was annoyed and angry at his timidity, but he just didn't dare to write that name.
"Damn, hate, hate!"
He roared and knelt down on the ground, beating the ground with his hands constantly. With the emergence of many memories, his expression became crazy like never before.
Tang Xian realized that he had no way to ignore this person.
In Qiyuan's Kingdom of God, Li Xiaoyu believes in himself, so he can illogically question the Order in the Kingdom of God.
In the sixth year after graduation, when she was the enemy of the whole world, she gave up her status as the daughter of the Li family, and without hesitation, rushed into the mining area with her own strength, just to bridge the distance between mountains and rivers.
When the two threats of annihilating the world, Qiyuan the Orderer and the judge, existed, only Li Xiaoyu said to himself——
"Tang Xian, let's run away. It doesn't matter what happens in this world, as long as you are still alive. We don't owe them anything."
Tang Xian raised his head, his eyes were bloodshot because of the pain, and the expression on his face couldn't tell whether he was crying or laughing.
She is just a part of her own world, but she seems to be more important to her than the whole world.
Why would there be such a person?
Feelings cannot be quantified. Somewhere in this world, there must be someone who loves you immeasurably.
Suddenly, such a sentence popped up in his memory. Tang Xian couldn't remember who said it, but it was such a sentence that made him unable to write down the name no matter how much he gritted his teeth.
Night fell again, and Tang Xian no longer remembered which night it was.
He originally thought that he had become an absolutely rational game-breaker again, but now he found that those emotions that belong to human beings have returned.
Seven hundredth day.
For nearly a month, Tang Xian's hair and beard became messy again.
The whole person became exhausted again, as if he was more than ten years old.
The baby's voice had a hint of mockery again, and it laughed happily, adding a touch of fear and weirdness to this silent place.
But no matter how much it yells.
Tang Xian didn't explore the world anymore, and didn't write Li Xiaoyu's name on the road sign.
Only this name, must not write...
This was the only thought in his mind.
Maybe it was in response to Li Xiaoyu's words—
Let's run away, it doesn't matter what happens to this world.
The mental fatigue suddenly overwhelmed Tang Xian.
The sense of responsibility to save the world has caused him to lose too many precious things.
After writing Yan Xiaoling's name, he almost lost his humanity.
Or he had already lost them, but because of Li Xiaoyu, he picked them up again.
Tang Xian didn't know whether he should regain his humanity, and he didn't want to think about the future of human beings and himself now. It doesn't matter how the world becomes.
Because he was too sleepy.
"Li Xiaoyu, I'm tired."
With a plop, Tang Xian fell to the ground, eyes closed, motionless, like a corpse that had been dead for a long time.
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Tang Xian had a dream.
In the dream, there was a huge city, that city seemed to be built from the ruins, countless people lived in that city, there was no face, the whole face was blank, everyone was the same.
He was guarding the corner of the city, living with a cat-like girl, like a pair of beggars.
Countless people pass by them every day, and they will stay for a long time, seeming to be talking to them, but Tang Xian can't understand, and neither can the girl next to them.
Life seems to be pressed under the carbon paper, repeating day by day, and getting weaker and weaker.
Tang Xian thought that he would probably be trapped here forever.
He actually remembered.
I came to the Lord of Eden's kingdom of God to find the weakness of the Lord of Eden.
But it failed. The Lord of Eden looted all his precious memories. This was a complete fiasco.
In the ruins intertwined with fantasy and reality, I fell into a long dream.
It's like being in a dream, dreaming of being trapped in a dream.
But suddenly one day, the dream that had been repeated countless times changed.
A tall woman came to Tang Xian.
Tang Xian opened his eyes wide. This was the other one of the only two people left in his memory.
The woman's tone carried the domineering arrogance of the world, and said:
"I failed, and you don't seem to be having a good time, are you ready to start the final plan?"
The woman's fingers touched Tang Xian's forehead.
At this moment, Tang Xian finally remembered——
Why Qiyuan must not be forgotten. Why did I save Qi Yuan's name until the end, and even subconsciously put it behind Li Xiaoyu—
Because I haven't lost yet, there is one more crucial card!
(end of this chapter)