If the Deep Sea Forgets You-Chapter 186 - Separation

Xia Qingyi said, “How did they find out?!”

“My phone lock screen is a photo of you sleeping. Liu Zhiyuan helped me take a call when I was in a meeting today and he saw it. He asked me, so I simply told him about our relationship now.”

“Are you crazy?” Xia Qingyi looked at him. “You used my photo as the lock screen?! If they asked, couldn’t you just say that I purposely changed it for you as a prank? Why did you even tell him?”

Mo Han looked as though he was not disturbed by this matter. He seemed to be unable to understand why Xia Qingyi was so furious, and pulled at her hand. “What’s wrong about saying it? I have to say it sooner or later.”

“Tell me exactly what you said to them today.” Xia Qingyi looked at him seriously.

“I said, you’re my girlfriend,” Mo Han said.

“You just said it like this?!”

“Then how else can I say it?”

“What were their reactions?”

“Liu Zhiyuan looked a little surprised, Barrister Liao did not speak for a long time.”

Xia Qingyi started to worry. “They still think I’m your younger sister. When you said that, aren’t you telling them that you got together with your sister?”

“They know you’re not my real sister, and that we’re not related by blood.”

“Not related by blood, but I’m still your sister legally. What will they think now that you did this? I don’t care what they think of me, but you, they’ll definitely think you’re a bad person!”

“But what I said was the truth, you’re my girlfriend now.” Mo Han thought that Xia Qingyi would be happy when she knew that he had announced their relationship, but seeing her expression now, he felt puzzled and asked her, “Did you not want to announce our relationship? You want us to continue to date secretly, you criticize me when I hold your hand even for a while outside.”

Xia Qingyi said, “It’s not that I don’t want to announce the relationship between the two of us, but the timing is not right, it’s not the time yet. At least wait until the adoption agreement expires before we say anything.”

She said, “And also, you should at least mention it to me even if you want to say it. Discuss it with me. It’s not good to make such a decision by yourself.”

“It doesn’t matter whether it happened sooner or later. Even if the agreement still stands, we are not related by blood, and we’re dating normally, why can’t we tell others that we’re together?!”

Xia Qingyi faced him. “But like this… what will other people think of you… They’d say that you have an affair with your sister in secret?! … This won’t do, this will affect your career in the future.”

“Work is work, what’s between us is a personal matter. I feel that they’re not related… and what’s more, you don’t have to worry about so many things, I’ll handle them myself next time.”

Mo Han was a little angry, and he sounded a little bad-tempered. He could not understand why Xia Qingyi had such a huge reaction over him revealing their relationship. He saw no point in it.

“You can handle it?!” Xia Qingyi said, “You think you can handle it, so you didn’t even tell me when you met with Third Young Master?”

Mo Han looked at her glaring at him.

Xia Qingyi said, “I saw Zhang Yang at school today. He told me about it.”

Mo Han lowered his head, his tone a little rude. “I feel that there’s no need to discuss him between the two of us.”

“You know about it?” Xia Qingyi asked him.

“Know what? That you loved Third Young Master for six years in the past?” snapped Mo Han.

“You’re always like that, you keep everything to yourself. You knew that I loved him for six years, and you didn’t even ask me anything when you came back. I don’t even have the chance to explain myself to you.”

“I’ll say it again, I don’t want to discuss your ex with you.” Mo Han could not control his own emotions, and his tone became strict.

“Who are you calling my ex?! I didn’t have a relationship with him in the past, it was purely that of a superior and subordinate.” Xia Qingyi started to be in a bad mood after hearing Mo Han’s tone.

“You loved him for six years! I bet you’re willing to do anything for him. So, from what I see, this is no different from an ex.”

“The difference is big! Can you lump an ex and a superior together? What’s more…” Xia Qingyi rebutted Mo Han, and suddenly remembered that Zhang Yang had told her about how Third Young Master had killed anyone involved with her in the past. She stopped talking and stood there stunned.

Mo Han looked up to see that she was in a dazed, her eyes staring at one spot when he realized she was silent. He smiled, and said sourly, “Are you thinking of your Third Young Master again?”

Xia Qingyi returned to her senses, feeling as though everything had become a mess. Everything, from the past and present had tangled together, and she felt horribly tired. She released a long sigh and said to Mo Han, “Those are all in the past, can we not talk about it anymore?”

“I can tell your Third Young Master does not treat you as just a subordinate, and anyway, you only told me that you’d try, but you’re still not able to forget about him. So go and find him then, I’m not going to stop you, as long as you’re willing to date with him in prison, you can leave now.”

Mo Han did not know why he would say something like that. In truth, he immediately regretted it when the words left his mouth.

“What did you say?!” Xia Qingyi stared at him disbelievingly.

Mo Han stayed silent. He placed his hand on his head and grabbed a chunk of his own hair, feeling extraordinarily frustrated.

“You’re that mistrustful of me?” Xia Qingyi’s voice was almost trembling as she said the question, her eyes red.

Mo Han remained silent on the sofa and did not speak.

Xia Qingyi was angered once again by how he was refusing to say a single word, the sentence he had just said constantly surfacing in her brain.

She tried to let herself calm down as best as she could. She softened her tone and said, “I don’t want to fight with you now… Let’s calm down for two days… and not see each other.”

Mo Han’s voice was cold. “You’re telling me that you’re leaving?”

After hearing him speak like that, Xia Qingyi felt that she could no longer communicate with him and said out of spite, “Yes, yes, yes! I’m going to leave! I’m not coming back, stay here by yourself!”

Xia Qingyi turned around and walked towards the door when Mo Han said from behind, “If you’re going to leave, then I’m not going to go and find you!”

Xia Qingyi ignored him and slammed the door shut, thinking, whatever!

After leaving Mo Han’s place, she really did not wish to return and fight with Mo Han again. She had never fought with him before, and she did not know what it would feel like to fight with him. Now that she had experienced this once, she did not want to go through it again.

Mo Han had been completely unreasonable, and he was so stubborn. He refused to say anything, and if he did, it would make her angry. When Xia Qingyi wanted to communicate with him, he would rebut with another sentence.

Thinking about it made her even angrier. Xia Qingyi brisk walked in the streets by herself, her footsteps never stopping.

It slowly became late, and Xia Qingyi was rather tired from the walking. She looked at her feet, and realized that she was actually still wearing her slippers from home. She did not have a single cent on her, and had left her phone at home. She was standing alone on the streets, and the roads were gradually becoming quieter and quieter.

Under the faint yellow street lights in the dark, Xia Qingyi hugged herself with her arms and slowly walked with her head lowered. She turned around and saw nobody. Mo Han indeed did not come and find her.

He was scared that he had disappointed her.

Ever since she had recovered her memories, Xia Qingyi would occasionally feel that some shadows of the past were still on her. She could not escape the entanglements of the past, no matter how hard she tried.

Xia Qingyi knew that Mo Han had fallen in love with the Xia Qingyi after she had lost her memories, the normal girl who would laugh everyday. He definitely would not like the Song Nianmu with her underworld background, who had spent her daily life in debauchery.

Song Nianmu was not Xia Qingyi, they were never the same person.

But, who was the current her then? She could not figure out this question.

The current her had Song Nianmu’s past, and Xia Qingyi’s future. But who exactly should she be?

The more she thought about this question, the more lost she felt.

Xia Qingyi did not go back that night.

Mo Han sat on the sofa where they had fought and waited for the entire night, but Xia Qingyi did not return.

He watched the sky slowly turn dark, and then saw it gradually turn into dawn, but there was still no sounds from the door.

The ashtray on the coffee table was piled full with extinguished cigarette butts. The smoking addiction that he had finally beaten had returned within one night. He sat on the sofa, going through packets of cigarettes, waiting for Xia Qingyi to come back and stand at the door to scold him for smoking again.

But she did not return.

It was time for him to go to work. Mo Han finally stood up and switched off the light that had been on for the entire night. He dragged his body along, feeling dizzy because of the lack of sleep, and forced himself to go to his room to change his clothes. But he could not tie his tie properly no matter what, and he pulled it off frustratedly. He simply wore a blazer over his suit and left.

When he walked past the living room, Mo Han saw the phone and clothes that Xia Qingyi had left on the table and stopped in his tracks. He found a pen and paper, scribbled something down, and placed it beside her phone.

The paper said, stay at home when you’re back, let’s talk after I get back from work.

When he reached the door, Mo Han doubled back and found a spare key from the bedroom. He put it in a box near the door, Xia Qingyi would know about it.

Mo Han drove his car to the law firm for work. From the beginning till the end, he never thought that Xia Qingyi would really leave his side. He only thought that she would definitely sit on the sofa and wait for him when he returned home. He could imagine her expression. She would definitely look angry, and she would demand an explanation from him. But it was okay, he would talk to her.

Xia Qingyi’s anger always came quickly and left quickly.

What happened yesterday was just a small fight in the long road ahead.

Even until afternoon, that was what he thought.