Help! Five Beast Alphas Want To Breed Me!!(BL)-Chapter 225: Love Heals

Rhydian;

I listen to the crickets in the distance. Focusing on their song is the only reprieve from drowning in the chaos of my thoughts.

I’m sitting on the cold stone ledge by my room’s window, staring at the dim courtyard below without actually seeing anything.

Lanterns flicker outside as guards keep giving out provisions and sorting out the wounded and impoverished families.

It’s the second night, but Gravemaw is still recovering from the hand it was dealt by the Witches and Warlocks.

However, despite all this scurrying and chaos around me, my mind is far from here...far from the castle... far from this suffocating silence... so far.

My thoughts keep circling back to one person.

One face.

One warmth that hurts so much to think about.

...Elián.

I press my elbows against my thighs, and my fingers curl tightly as I helplessly think about him.

My body still aches faintly where his magic stitched me back together...twice. He healed me twice in the chaos of the attack... despite everything.

Despite the pain I caused him.

Despite the betrayal, he must have felt each time he looked at me.

He saved me anyway...

That thought alone makes my throat burn.

I exhale, long and heavy as I run a hand over my face.

I remember his words about how forgiveness is too expensive for me to ask of him, and my chest tightens.

Saving my life doesn’t erase the foolish choices I made.

It doesn’t wipe away the fact that I hurt him...deeply.

I know that.

Every time my mind drifts to the way he looked at me before the chaos...hesitant, distant, wounded...it feels like a spear through my ribs.

And now, before I can fix it, he is gone.

Gone with Zephan. Taken to Nagari for safety. Out of my reach. Out of my apologies. Out of any chance to start repairing what I broke.

I run a hand through my hair, tugging slightly at the roots.

"I messed up," I whisper into the empty room.

"I messed up so badly..." I groan, and as if the goddess wants to sharpen the knife in my chest, another thought cracks through the haze.

Bram is gone too.

He vanished the night of the attack. Completely. No scent. No tracks. No shadow. Nothing.

Just gone.

It bothers me... fuck, it bothers me...

He couldn’t possibly have snuck with Elián to Nagari... could he?

There’s no way.

There isn’t even space in my mind to unpack his absence fully. Not when my heart is still bleeding from Elián’s absence.

I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting here, staring at nothing. Minutes. Maybe hours.

The ache in my chest doesn’t ease. It pulses. It throbs. It reminds me of every mistake I made, every warning I ignored, every moment I pushed Elián away when he was trying so hard to love me.

And now...

A soft knock interrupts my thoughts, and I turn to the door.

"Come in," I call, straightening slightly.

The door opens, and a small figure steps in. Alana. Her brown hair frames her gentle face as she carries a tray of food toward me.

"I thought you might be hungry," she says quietly with her rabbit ears bobbing as she moves.

"Thank you," I reply as I force a smile, and she sets the tray on the small table near me.

She uncovers the dishes and there’s steaming broth, roasted roots, and fresh bread. A simple meal...but it smells good. Warm. Comforting.

Alana bows politely and begins to back away, but before she can leave, I call out.

"Alana?"

She pauses and then looks up at me.

I hesitate, unsure if this is stupid or desperate.

Probably both.

"Can I ask you something?" I finally question and as much as she tries to keep her expression neutral, her ears fall, betraying her.

"Of course." She replies, and I swallow.

The words sit heavy in my throat, lodged painfully deep. But I need to hear the truth...from someone honest. Someone who sees things clearly.

"Do you think..." I begin but my voice cracks slightly.

"Do you think Elián and I will ever be the same again?" I finally force the words out, and her brows lift slightly.

"Alpha Rhydian...Is that truly what you wish to ask me?" She questions and I let out a breath.

"Yes." As I lean forward again with my elbows on my knees.

"Please... I need an honest answer. Not a soft one." I add, and she clasps her hands in front of her.

"Alpha Rhydian... If I speak honestly, you will not be offended?" She questions and my heart skips a beat.

"I won’t," I reply, and she takes a breath.

Then she says it like it’s something she’s been wanting to spit out for a long time.

"You were foolish, Alpha Rhydian." I freeze.

"Extremely foolish. Trusting a stranger over your own partner and your own family was reckless." She adds, and I close my eyes. I deserve that.

"But," she continues gently, and I slowly peel my eyes open.

"It seems you have learned from it. And that is what’s important." She adds, and I raise a brow.

She isn’t scolding me. She is stating a fact... calmly, kindly.

"If your remorse is real," she continues,

"and if you truly work toward being better... then yes. I believe things can be fixed between you both" she adds with a small smile and my breath hitches.

"Really?" I croak, and she nods.

"Love is not as fragile as you fear. Master Elián cares deeply. If he did not, he wouldn’t have risked his life to save yours that night. Twice." She replies and a lump forms in my throat.

"You think he loves me?"

"Yes," She says with a soft smile.

"But trust... that may take time. You hurt him, Alpha Rhydian. Not beyond repair... but enough that he may hesitate to trust him again." She adds, and my gaze falls away from her open, bright brown eyes.

"I know," I reply as my voice drops to a whisper.

"I know I hurt him..."

"You cannot undo the past," she says gently.

"But you can prove through your actions that you have changed. If you do that... Master Elián will find his way back to you. Not instantly. Not easily. But real love does not vanish after one mistake." She says and I stare at her, absorbing every word.

"And Alpha Rhydian," she adds quietly,

"Please remember this... Master Elián can be naive, but he is not weak. If he healed you twice after such pain... then he is fighting for you too. He may not know how to show it right now, but he has not given up." She whispers and warmth blooms faintly in my chest...small, fragile, but there.

It’s Hope.

"I think that once emotions settle... he will allow you close again. But you must be patient. Gentle. Consistent." She says softly, and I nod slowly.

"I understand," I assure her, and she smiles faintly.

"Good. Then keep working. Keep loving him honestly. And when he returns... show him the Alpha he deserves. Not the one who hurt him." She concludes.

"Thank you, Alana. Truly." I speak through a shaky breath, and she bows once more and begins walking toward the door.

Just before she leaves, she turns back slightly.

"Do not fear, Alpha Rhydian. Love that survives war... can survive mistakes too." She says with a massive smile and after that, she slips out quietly.

Leaving me alone again.

But this time, the silence doesn’t suffocate me.

It holds something warmer.

Something like hope for a second chance.

I stare at the food she brought, then at the window... at the moon above the courtyard.

Somewhere far from here, Elián is alive. Safe. Maybe scared. Maybe confused. Maybe hurting.

And despite all this, he still has my heart.

I have to find a way to atone for my sons against him.

I must find a way...