I commited a sin.
The first sin that I -the Light Goddess, Inflation- committed; betraying the person that I love.
In the Genesis era, because of the birth of humans, the first friction between us Gods occurred.
The Dark God Entropy, who I love, adored the humans. On the other hand, the other Gods claimed that the humans should be ruled over like the other living beings.
At first, I didn’t really support any of the two opinions.
But, if it’s to make my beloved Entropy happy, I thought it wouldn’t be bad to raise the humans into living beings of higher-order along with him. That’s all I thought of this.
In this time, there was one God who threw mud into my heart.
“Entropy-sama seems to treasure the humans more than you. At this rate, all his love will be taken away by a lower lifeform, you know?”
For the first time as a God, these emotions called doubt and envy had surfaced.
He will choose the humans over me.
As if trying to fight against this doubt inside of me, I stood on the enemy side.
There was the need to subdue this friction between Gods. He will definitely avoid a fight against me. Knowing this, as long as we can reach a compromise with the other Gods…
I had such faint hopes.
But…he fought.
Even with a despairing situation like 5 vs 1, he still fought.
Why?
Does he really love humans more than me?
Even against 5, even when I stood there, he still decided to take the side of humans and fought alone.
The fight ended, and in the moment I had to seal him with my own hands, for the first time in my life, I felt like my chest was going to burst open.
He definitely won’t forgive me.
I have perpetrated a sin that I wouldn’t be able to atone for even in an eternity. That’s how I thought at that time.
But…this was just the beginning of my true sin.
After the Dark God Entropy had been sealed, the four base element Gods began to act selfishly.
The Fire God Nova exercised atrocities at times towards the surface world; The Water God Coacervate induced falsehoods to the humans, stirred up conflicts, and enjoyed watching it; the Wind God Quasar vanished into his own side; and only the Mother Earth Mantle respected my will and obeyed me.
Within all of this, just how was I going to have Entropy forgive me? I was only thinking of this.
For the sake of humans, he fought a fight that he would inevitably lose.
He loved the humans that much. If I were to do something for the sake of these humans, when he comes back, won’t I be able to soothe him a bit?
Thinking this way, I decided on realizing that dream he was trying to accomplish.
By showing the humans the path of progress, I thought about supporting them.
But for the sake of that, I would have to tread with care. Because the opposition of the four Base Element Gods would be inevitable.
Even if I am one of the poles, I don’t have as much advantage against the four Base Elements as Entropy. On top of that, the seal on Entropy at that time was incredibly firm and couldn’t be released without the cooperation of all five Gods.
In order to welcome Entropy into this world again, I couldn’t displease the four Base Elements.
And so, instead of acting as a God, I decided to guide the humans as a human myself.
With a human vessel, I will reincarnate as a human and raise the humans within their own society. And then, the human me was named Izanami, and became the leader of a certain group of people.
We created techniques and arranged rules. My group of people was becoming visibly bigger with time and got wealthier.
Those were enriching days that I didn’t have in the Genesis era.
I felt like I slightly understood the feelings of him wanting to get involved with the humans.
And so, in the process of raising this community of people, I tested doing a playful thing.
I knew that this would be a valid method to unite the hearts of the people.
In order to put this method to practical use, I decided on uniting the people under one symbol.
The symbol I prepared for this was…the Dark God Entropy.
The humans will worship the Dark God, respect him, and with that common point, they would recognize each other as comrades.
When the seal is undone and Entropy returns to this world seeing all this people loving him and respecting him, he will definitely be surprised and be happy. That’s what I thought.
At first, I was incredibly motivated in putting this plan in track.
A part of what I did for this was conferring the ‘shadow’ power to humans.
As the Light Goddess, I can’t confer the dark power. But creating ‘shadow’ with light by using the body of humans as intermediary was a relatively easy technique.
I utilized this ‘shadow’ as a substitute for darkness and spread it to the humans as the blessing of the Dark God Entropy.
After learning to control the ‘shadow’ as if they were their arms and legs, the humans developed even more, and the community grew bigger and bigger.
The land that I ruled over as the Queen Izanami was at some point in time called the Underworld Country, and by the time my body was all wrinkles, it had already grown into a big nation that was equal to no other in this world.
But, I overdid it.
There’s no way a community of humans that had become so big wouldn’t fall in the eyes of the four Base Elements.
The human civilization that had developed heavily had been seen as arrogant by the Gods. On top of that, the fact that the Underworld Country worshipped the Dark God Entropy had angered them. Because Entropy had been defeated, they were under the impression that they were superior to Entropy.
Their anger attacked the Underworld Country in the form of divine punishment.
Locusts, plague, acid rain; on top of that, invaders from outside that were influenced by their will had pushed the Underworld Country into the verge of destruction.
Even when it had reached that state, I couldn’t return to being the Light Goddess Inflation to stop the foolish four Base Elements.
All of them were the key to unsealing Entropy.
If I were to injure any of the four Base Elements, the return of Entropy would be pushed to a length of time that’s almost like an eternity.
Rather than the humans I raised and guided, I ended up choosing Entropy.
That is my second sin. A sin that’s helplessly heavy.
But what made it even more unsalvageable was the fact that my sin didn’t end with just that.
…There was a young one named Doraha.
A person that was born in the Underworld Country, in the age when it had been officially established as a nation.
Since the time that person had grown aware, that person was filled with faith towards Entropy, and on top of being used to controlling the ‘shadow’, it was a level higher than the others.
By the time Doraha had grown into a healthy young one, there was no other person as good in utilizing the shadows in the Underworld Country, and I -the Queen Izanami- conferred this child the highest title of the guardians… I conferred her the title of hero.
And then, in the time the Underworld Country was heading towards destruction, the one who fought back the most, choked and cried the most…was Doraha.
She ran about in order to drive away the locusts, she embraced her family that was desecrated by the plague and cried, and even utilized her own body as a roof to protect the people from the acid rain.
She confronted the invaders that were send by the four Base Elements, refuted the insults hurled at the Dark God, and was enraged at this irrationality.
Even when I witnessed the figure of Doraha fighting bathed in blood and shedding her own, I didn’t lend her my help.