But there was no way, he was too hurt, the pain in his heart was too much, if he didn’t drive like this, he wouldn’t even know how to vent!

Finally, accompanied by a loud "bang!" sound.

The entire highway erupted in screams.

Countless vehicles behind stopped one after another, staring in horror at the smoke from the car hood and the bloody scene inside.

The headlights illuminated the nighttime highway, and in the warm yellow light, countless emergency calls rang out.

"Hello? Police station? This is the South Third Ring Expressway in the northern suburb section. There’s a car that’s speeding too fast and crashed into the guardrail. Yes, there’s been an accident, it’s very serious! The driver is covered in blood, none of us dare to move! We’re not sure if he’s still alive!"

Inside the car, amid excruciating pain, Yu Xi buried himself in the safety airbag, smiling bitterly.

His whole body was almost shattered, it hurt so much, yet he felt a trace of relief...

This much pain, maybe he is going to die? That’s good, that way no one will discover the dirty feelings even he couldn’t accept.

In the car, the undestroyed audio system persistently played music, "Transformed into an Isolated Whale" by Bu Cai, "...My back like a barren hill, while you smile and nod, taking it as the whole universe, you wave to the sun and greet the seagulls, accompanying me to love the heaven and earth with chic frivolity, but it’s a pity you ultimately can’t lie on my chest, admiring the vast eternal night sky, putting stars into your eyes..."

Beautiful, such beautiful lyrics, just like when he saw Gu Zixi, the palpitations deep in his heart, also like every day and night in his dreams, imagining what his life would be like if Gu Zixi was with him.

But everything is gone.

A faint smile hung on his lips, and Yu Xi’s consciousness grew increasingly blurred.

In his disoriented state, he seemed to see his uncle Feng Chengjin—the man he admired most in his life—rushing towards him in boundless anxiety and tremble amidst the sound of sirens.

His uncle cupped his head, not caring if the dirty blood would stain the noble suit, urgently calling out to him, "Yu Xi! Yu Xi! Can you still hear me?"

Yu Xi wanted to speak, but at this moment, he was almost unable to respond.

The blood fissures all over his head were gushing fresh blood, his unconscious body was about to be lifted onto a stretcher by medical staff.

He felt dizzy, his consciousness further fading away, as if nothing remained except the last sense.

A hoarse syllable, "Uncle..."

This sentence even flowed out with bloodstains from the corner of his lips...

His heart warmed that his uncle was the first to come.

Feng Chengjin was stunned, the intense black eyes gazing at the tears on his face in the deep night, profound yet complicated, disordered yet trembling, finally raising a hand to touch the dry barren.

After a long while, his uncle squeezed out three words from a complex accent, "Zixi?"

Yu Xi was embarrassed.

The sound of a heart shattering, he never expected even at this moment, he would be discovered, but...looking at his uncle’s deep set of eyes, he knew, in this world, there was nothing he could hide from his uncle. 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎

Hooking the corners of his lips, he said nothing.

Feng Chengjin quickly surveyed the chaotic reality, seemingly wanting to find Gu Zixi.

Perhaps selfishly, Feng Chengjin at this moment actually wanted Gu Zixi to give his closer nephew an account, an immediate account! Whether it’s an account or not!

But with just a slight turn of the head, Yu Xi understood.

Tightly clutching his clothes, Yu Xi raspily mouthed the words "Hide, hide..."

Feng Chengjin’s eyes trembled, "Yu Xi..."

Yu Xi smiled bitterly, more difficult now, delicately, with pronounced lip movements for each word, "All, all, it’s my fault...He, he’s very happy, don’t, don’t disturb him...help, keep it hidden my whole life..."

In an instant, Feng Chengjin was completely stunned in place.

Yet Yu Xi smiled, slowly closing his weary eyes.

Turning his head, tears slipped down the corner of his eyes.

Because he understood, even if he said it, it would only be inconsequential, Zixi...doesn’t like men...

Sinking into heartache, in his dream, he seemed to be able to see only the man in the winter snow, wearing a white down jacket unstained by dust...

He liked him, really really liked him.

From the first sight he liked him, the first words spoken he liked, holding him for the first time, even more liked.

But, some fondness is destined to be a solitary journey of a bitter monk.

In many people’s many people’s lives they will encounter infatuation, unrequited love.

Like him, so tragic, a love throughout life impossible to speak out...

Yu Xi laughed, and could only laugh, a little embarrassed and humiliated, lonely and disappointed, he could only lick his wounds alone, no one could help...

But for Zixi—

He still hoped to keep it hidden, truly liking someone, if you can’t give happiness don’t disturb them. This is how he is, if Zixi knew, it would only add confusion, what’s the difference in saying or not saying?

He’s disturbed, he’s just a man, rather do as Zixi wishes.

Just...

Is he going to die? Why did he see the white of heaven?

He saw his soul starting to separate from his body?

The pain...so painful...painful to the point that his tears began to tremble again.

In his dream, it was filled with the terrified cries of the Feng Family who arrived afterward, "Yu Xi!"

None of this mattered to him, he still heard a call from Gu Zixi.

Ha...

With just a shallow sentence, his world narrowed to only that one man.

In his soul, his tears began to fall.

Embarrassed, he never dared to let that man know—

Zixi, I like you, really, really, like you...

He never dared to let the world know—

My first love ended without results, I like someone, but that person won’t like me...