Will of chaos-Chapter 1703: Cap 1701: Luci’s decision

Pov Yaffe:

I was floating in the void when I felt him approaching me, the Ascendants in the distance were not even able to sense our presence.

"Why are you here?" (???)

"I’m collecting this story for my books, they will be glorious records." (me)

"You shouldn’t show yourself more than that, you even introduced yourself with your real name before the new Chaos Bearer." (???)

"What’s wrong? Zenos would have felt my presence sooner or later." (me)

I know every Chaos Bearer that has ever existed and if there’s one thing I’ve learned many times is their capacity for unpredictability, you can’t doubt anything around them, and that young Chaos Bearer is growing as fast as Paradox.

"You speak of me, but who are you?" (me)

"You know me, but I won’t tell you who I am, today I just wanted to find out more about the new Chaos Bearer." (???)

"That interests me even more." (me)

"I’ll give you a piece of advice, keep your library neutral..." (???)

"..." (me)

I tried to look at him, but his appearance was hidden behind several transformations, even his Aura was hidden and disappeared without showing its power.

I became even more curious about his identity, but there were no lists to follow other than his interest in the new Chaos Bringer.

"I have to keep an eye on him from now on." (me)

With that I move forward as I feel a new place of historical inspiration, so I take out a bookmark containing Zenos’ Aura that I just made and put it in his bibliography.

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Pov Luci:

I didn’t understand anything that was happening, I remember feeling a lot of pain, but I don’t remember the reason for it.

I remember doing something important, but I don’t remember exactly what it was.

I remember I was struggling to find someone, but I don’t remember who that person was.

I remember someone is always on my mind, someone I love very much, but I can’t even remember who it was.

I remember endless guilt, but I didn’t know where that guilt originated from.

Everything was so confusing in my mind, to tell the truth I don’t even remember who I am, I just feel like I need to do something, but I don’t know what I need to do no matter how hard I keep trying to remember.

I was surrounded by darkness in a total void, I didn’t even understand the lack of all my senses until each one of them showed itself to me.

Suddenly I smelled flowers with every breath, then came the cool breeze hitting my skin, soon after came the sounds of trees swaying in the wind and finally came a ferrous taste in my mouth before my eyes opened.

"Where am I?" (me)

I finish opening my eyes and finally see where I was, I am in a forest where darkness took over the treetops that cover the sky, on the sides there were flowers of all colors swaying in the wind and seeming to be illuminated by particles of light that dance among the flowers.

I myself was lying on what looked like a dirt road, the landscape was mysterious and I was confused about my identity, I didn’t know why I was here, I didn’t know where I came from, I didn’t know where I was going and I didn’t know what I should do next.

"I can’t stay still... I mustn’t stay still..." (me)

I stood up and felt an impulse coming from within me to move my body, I felt the urge to start walking, but I didn’t know where I should go.

I just thought about walking towards the flowers that were so beautiful and full of life, but I felt a great fear of the darkness that surrounded that illuminated area as if death was lurking in the darkness.

I tried to look at both sides of the path and I didn’t know which one I would be walking forward and which one I would be walking back the way I came.

I didn’t know where to go, outside of the paths an endless fear took over my mind while the two paths I could go were full of mystery, but regardless of which direction between the two I followed, I would possibly find the answers I was looking for.

The feeling of anxiety pulsed inside me, the desire to start walking in some direction worsened inside me, but when I was close to taking a step in one of the two directions I realized something.

I didn’t know where any of the paths could lead, I wasn’t sure of anything, but I found myself looking at those beautiful flowers once again, I didn’t know why, I just knew that the distance to those flowers was longer than both directions of this path, no matter how close the flower field seemed to be.

For some reason, I wanted to be with those flowers, I wanted to be surrounded by nature and life, I longed for that more than anything, so I made my decision.

I take a step towards the outside of that path, fear took over me, but I surrendered to it since it was the only certainty I felt in my emotions and I carried that fear with me with every step I took, as soon as I took my second step off the path everything turned to darkness, endless loneliness took over me completely while fear was replaced by despair.

I could still feel the ground beneath my feet, but each step was extremely heavy, I wasn’t able to see anything in that darkness and even so I did my best to keep walking straight in the hope of reaching that flower garden.

Even though I couldn’t see, I chose to believe that at the end of that darkness there would be the flower garden I was looking for. What I wanted was not to go back the way I had come or to advance in something I didn’t know. What I really felt was a desire to simply stop in a beautiful place to stay.

Each step I took in the midst of that darkness became heavy to the point of consuming my strength. Even so, time did not stop passing and I did not stop walking.

I did not know how much time had passed. I felt tired, but I did not stop walking. As time passed, I no longer remembered the flowers I had once seen and I was exhausted. Even so, I kept walking without daring to stop.

At some point, I was so tired that I could no longer think. I existed only to continue walking in the same direction, the direction I had chosen at some point. My own voice whispered in my mind about the mistake I had made in walking in that direction.

Time continued to pass and suddenly each step changed the entire environment around me. In one step I was in the middle of a beautiful city full of people. In another step I was in front of a table with a man wearing a white coat waiting for me at a table. In another step I was in the middle of a city in ruins. In another step I was walking among countless bodies. In another step I was facing a window watching an endless number of monsters coming towards me. In another step I was with two men beside me, all of them looking at a drawing of a humanoid project. In another step I was facing the cabin of a large metal creation in humanoid shape. In another step I was inside the cabin of that thing looking at an endless number of monsters coming out of a crack in space where a large eye seems to laugh at us. In another step I was in the middle of countless creatures filled only with hunger. In the last step I was facing countless Dragons led by three of them.

With each step, a brand of emotions flooded my interior, ranging from ease, love and affection to suffering, sadness and madness.

I felt many moments where I wanted to stop walking and there were moments where I felt like walking backwards, but even so I kept walking forward as if I knew something or someone was waiting for me at the end.

With that last step, suddenly everything lit up, all the scenes disappeared with the darkness fading like a mist as I found myself surrounded by the flowers I had seen so much from afar, particles of light danced around me, a feeling of relief arose within me as my feet began to move again as if each step was as light as the clouds.

"Is this your decision...?"

"Yes..." (me)

I looked around without seeing anyone, but somehow I understood what he was saying and answered instinctively.

Looking down I realized that below the flowers the ground I was walking on was not made of earth, it was a crystal floor that continued to extend and as I walked forward the flowers became more beautiful until they became crystal, the dark forest gradually became illuminated by points of light becoming a universe of stars in which the crystal flowers floated like an ethereal garden as I continued walking until I was in front of a large tree that seemed to support this entire place.

From inside the tree a woman’s figure appeared and stood in front of me. Her beauty could not be described, but her presence seemed to embrace me with affection and I felt an impulse within me that made me kneel before her. She said nothing and even less did she ask anything of me. This was my wish, a wish to redeem what I had done and to be more than I already was.

I now knew who I was, I knew where I came from and I knew what awaited me if I continued as I was, but all of this only made me realize what I really wanted and who could grant me my wish.

"Allow me to serve you, allow me to be someone who brings harmony instead of destruction, who protects instead of killing, who can nourish others instead of consuming everything in an endless hunger." (me)

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"If this is your decision, then rise... Luci..." (Freya)