Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 53: I will die for you

Yujun’s POV

I grab his hand and pull him all the way to my room, risking being caught and punished. While being grateful for the silence of the house.

I slam the door shut behind us and growl at him angrily while he gives me those puppy eyes that makes my heart weak.

"Do you even think? Is this a Hwang thing?" I ask him angrily, the shock of seeing him and the high of kissing him has worn away, "how can you run in here like this? don’t you fear for your life?" I scold him.

"I only fear losing you Yujun" he says.

The words leave his lips so confidently, so calmly that my heart stops, everything pauses and I let out a shaky breath.

We look into each other’s eyes without saying a word for a few seconds, we aren’t speaking but somehow, I feel like we understand everything.

My worry for him, his...love for me.

"You should leave before someone finds you" I say to him and his lip lifts in a lazy smile, "Yujun-ah, don’t you know?’ he asks and I freeze as he asks that question, leaning against my door with his hand in his pocket. 𝑓𝑟𝑒𝘦𝓌𝑒𝑏𝑛𝑜𝘷𝑒𝘭.𝒸𝘰𝑚

His eyes are warm and tender but the words that leave his lips are far from it.

"I will die for you"

"Don’t say nonsense" I say, my traitors heart skips a beat and I feel the weight of the words drawing me to him.

"Nonsense?" he asks and tilts his head back, his nostrils flaring as he takes a deep breath, "you have no idea the things I will do for you, Junnah" he says, his voice is low and full of agony.

I shut my eyes as his scent gets to me, passionate and strong patchouli breaking through his scent patch.

I look out the window; my father and sister will be here by morning to decide how I will be broken in this time around.

I might not make it through this time...I look to Jaehyun and see that he is standing frozen by my door like a statue, willing to cross the border of my family’s territory just to kiss me but holding back from crossing the line of my room without my permission.

What if I just say goodbye now?

What if I just put us both out of our misery and say goodbye right now.

I walk over to him and wrap my arms around his neck and stand on tip toe to close the small height distance between us and brush my lips against his, he exhales and puts his hand on my waist, a shiver runs through my body from the touch.

"I’m in love with you Yujun" he says and I repeat the action as his warm breath hits my face, "I don’t love you" I say to him honestly and he sighs, "I know" he repeats.

"Jaehyun...can you...can you make love to me?" I ask and his hand on my waist tightens, "Junnah" he growls deep in his chest.

"I want it..." I say, "you said you will do anything for me" my voice trembles as I speak.

I can’t ask him to take away the pain I will feel in the coming hours but I can ask him to give me something to hold on to...even if it’s something I should never ask for.

Jaehyun holds the back of my neck and tilts my head upwards with his eyes boring into mine.

He knows.

I hear a whine from him as he leans down to seek out my scent gland, and my eyes blur the second his whine turns to a growl when he realizes I have scent patch under my sweater, my Jaehyun and his obsession with my scent.

"You smell like something else..." he growls, his voice coming out deep and rough, the sound is enough to set my body alight with a passion stronger than the last night.

I want it all.

"Scented sweater" I breath out as lift my arms to let him take it off me and he does. He pulls it off and tosses it aside like he personally hates the way it made me smell different.

Hwang Jaehyun, if you keep this up...I might...

A moan rips past my lips, as he places his hand on my bare waist and pulls me to himself. His palms on my skin are strangely hot, just what I need after being in the cold, thinking about my bleak future.

"Junnah...don’t run from me, I beg you" he says softly and I refuse to give him an answer, I know he knows.

"Give me tonight Jaehyun, heal me" I say and he brings me impossibly close to his body before he pulls the scent patch off my gland and rubs his thumb on it.

The action causes my breath to hang in my throat, and my slick begins to trickle out of my hole, "Oh fuck..." Jaehyun curses under his breath and rubs into the tender skin more, releasing more and more of my pheromones into the room.

And for the first time in my life, I am in love with my own scent.

Jaehyun makes my love things about myself that I have always hated and overlooked, he makes me appreciate being what I am...an omega.

’Divine’ my omega says inside of me.

"You are so divine" Jaehyun says out loud and I grab him by the neck to pull him down to my level and kiss him, my hand wanders to pull off his suit jacket and find his scent patch, "take it off" I say to him and he obeys.

With one tug, he pulls off the patch and floods the room with his heavy and unfiltered scent, I gulp as he unbuttons his shirt with one hand and keeps the other buried in my hair, like if he lets go, I will disappear.

"I’m all yours" he says and we both surge forward at the same time to meet in the middle for a kiss, our bare chests pressed against each other.

The start of a beautiful goodbye...can I really do it?