Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 48: It’s ruined, It’s ruined!

Yujun’s POV

"Yubin is coming, your father is hosting a meeting in our home" mother had said into the phone when she called this morning.

Mindlessly my fingers trace the edge of the scent patch I had borrowed from Jaehyun, itching to yank off the uncomfortable material and be free.

Father will murder me if he ever catches me without it.

"You know we are important now my son, hurry home and get a haircut" mother had urged, "I can’t wait to be the mother of the girl that kills that Hwang brat" she had rambled on.

"Do you think he will finally let me move into the main house?" mother had gone on rambling while I bite my fingers in Jaehyun’s room.

My mother is celebrating the potential destruction of the man I had surrendered my body to last night. Am I not doomed?.

Leaving Jaehyun’s house while knowing what was waiting for me at home had been a struggle, but this is who I am.

I am first the son and the heir of Choi Sanwoo before I am anything else.

Even before I am human.

"Your noona will be one choosing your heat partner this time around, she is so brilliant, son. You should be like her" mother had added to the already heavy information she had dumped on me.

Yubin, my older half-sister, is a cold version of my ruthless father and even more bitter. My heart clenches with fear and anxiety as I wonder if I will survive whoever she picks out for me.

Finally at the house I can never call home, I push the door open to sneak in but the second I step into the house; I am ambushed in a bear hug by my baby sister.

"Oppa, where have you been? I haven’t seen you in years" she exclaims dramatically and I find myself laughing. "We saw the other day, Yuyu-ssi" I say and she groans.

"I have so much to tell you" she says with her usually bright smile and I see her nose twitch, "and you have so much to tell me" she adds with a wink and I frown in confusion, Yunah and her codes.

"Lets go" she drags me to my room and plops down on my bed with her eyes shining brightly with childish wonder, and as always I am in awe of how she remains untainted in this messed up world we live in.

"Will you at least let me change my clothes?" I ask with laughter and my sister groans dramatically before falling backwards into the bed, I can’t help my fond smile as I watch her wave her arms on the bed.

How does she always show up to soften the storm? My human sunshine.

I go into the bathroom and take off my clothes quickly, but my hand hovers over the scent patch, yearning again to take it off and be comfortable as myself but I shake my head, anyone can step in anytime.

No one wants their future alpha learn to smell like jasmine instead of musk and power.

I run my hand over my bloated stomach, a sure sign that my heat is drawing close faster, and the light touch brings back the memory of Jaehyun kissing it. He hadn’t been disgusted by my little tummy like the last alpha who took me through my heat.

"Oppa hurry out" Yunah’s voice calls and I hurriedly put on the clothes I had brought in with me to change into. "Yes, yes, I’m here now" I say as I step out and she beams at me.

"I got asked out" she says and I feel my smile shake, I want to protest but I see the warning in her eyes, begging me to give her this happy moment.

"Really?" I say instead and she nods happily, "you’re really not going to tell me who your mate is?" I ask softly as I go to sit next to her, "I’ll tell you...but not right now" she says in a less cheerful voice and I blink at her.

"Yes" she says and hugs me suddenly, "I can smell him on you" she says and I freeze in her hold as she burst into happy laugher.

"Oppa, you know there is nothing you can say that will explain this but the truth, right?" she asks, still smiling brightly like she just discovered the best secret and didn’t just push aside her own sad feeling.

"I-" I say and she shakes her head, "you and Hwang-" she says and I place my hand over her mouth to shush her. "Oppa" she says and takes my hand off with her eyes wide, "Yunah..." I say, ready to kill every assumption and words she has.

"There is nothing wrong with being in love" she says stubbornly, "It’s not love" I say and she shakes her head in disagreement, her brown hair flying all over the place.

"You don’t know the look you have on you whenever you come home smelling like him" she says and I open my mouth to counter her but no words come out, "I’m happy" she says and I inhale sharply, "my big brother is finally getting the love he deserves"

My room door is slammed opened with so much force that the wood shakes as it hits the wall.

"What are you two talking about? Is this a time to be happy" Mom screams as she barges into the room with her eyes wide and red rimmed and her hair looking wild from pulling on it.

"Mom..." I call her in worry, as she looks like she would faint any minute now.

"It’s ruined. It’s ruined. It’s ruined!" she screams and I rush over to hold her, leaving Yunah to sit on the bed, frozen in fear, "Your father is angry, its ruined" she repeats and hold her arms.

"Mom!" I shout and shake her by holding her arms, "what’s wrong?" I ask her, watching as her chest rise and fall and her eyes darting around the room.

I note painfully that she’s drunk.

"It’s ruined. The Hwangs are breaking the engagement" she says and I see Yunah straighten, "what?" she asks.

I close my eyes.

Am I really cursed?

Why can’t I just have a tiny taste of happiness and know peace.