Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 150: Angel or Devil? Scalpel pt 1

150

Yujun’s POV

I rub my hand over my belly as I feel a sharp ache.

A groan slips past my lips from the pain, I really should be careful, I need Chan to return as quickly as possible.

He’s the one I need, especially his expertise for my pup’s health

"I should just get some rest" I mutter under my breath before turning around to go back in the direction I came from.

I return to my room, and lie down to try and take a nap, but somehow, I can’t take what I read out of my mind.

Random words keep flashing through my mind, bring headaches and pains, it feels like there’s a war going on inside my head.

My head vs my omega. Logic vs instinct. Something seriously is wrong.

The parallels between me and that lady I searched for feel eerily similar to me.

Our names are very similar, Cho and Choi, Yujin and Yujun.

Our looks are almost similar, the same white hair, brown hair and bunny like facial feature.

Our secondary genders are the same, we are both omegas.

Our social status are almost the same, we children of popular leaders, the representative faces of our individual families.

The more I think on it, the more wrong it feels, but I cannot for the life of me figure out what exactly is wrong.

Why were they talking about a Cho Yujin and comparing her to me, I grab my head as I feel a sharp pain that makes me double over.

"Ughh" I groan as flash of Chan sitting on a hospital bed comes to me.

The image looks so vivid, but I don’t remember being in that position, blinking twice and heaving heavily, I shake my head to dispel it.

"I’m getting paranoid" I groan as I get out of the bed.

Maybe I really do need to get that tea that Gawon offered and also get the meaning of the note she wrote to me, but first I need to find her.

Where could the so-called repenting be taking place? New questions keep coming up with every single day I spend in this place.

It’s evening and the sun is starting to sink in the sky as I leave the room again.

Something tells me I have gotten the answers I am looking for but I don’t remember and can’t think of when.

I take a few steps out of the room and down the hall before pausing in front of the door...the room Chan and I met during his rut.

The day I brought from my family home to this place.

Carefully and curiously, I push open the door and walk in, I don’t know what I’m looking for but I know there’s something I need to see in here.

The room smells of paper and ink, a unique smell in a digital world.

There is a wide shelf, a make shift library that’s lined with jotters and as I approach, the voice in my head that keeps telling me to be good gets louder.

The voices hurt and I wince as I get closer.

I pick one of the oldest book and opened the middle, there’s a scalpel in it with dried blood.

9/2 𝑓𝘳𝑒𝑒𝓌𝘦𝘣𝘯ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝘤𝑜𝑚

They wont stop hurting me.

They said I have to get the surgery done but I don’t want to.

"I am just a hurt man..."

Mom and dad are mean, they said I should stay out of the clan meeting.

Don’t they realize? They need me, I’m the strongest Kang.

"I am just a hurt man..."

They are fighting too much, I wish they’ll let me.

I practiced it on a maid today, I told her to give me ice cream and she did it.

I like it.

"I am just a hurt man" the voice roars and I fall to the floor, the scalpel falls out of the book with a clang and I groan.

"Is someone there?" someone asks from outside the door and I hear footsteps running around.

"Yah! That stupid omega ran away" a female voice screams, they don’t know I’m here, I slap my hand over my mouth to stay quiet with my heart pounding.

On the floor, I turn the page again, needing to know what exactly I’m reading.

"Find him" another person says.

"Oh shit, how did the Lord’s alpha voice fail on him?" the desperate question makes me open my eyes wide.

Fucking Chan used the alpha voice on me? How dare he?

They run past the room and I pull myself up to keep reading, since he used that voice on me...I need to know now more than ever exactly what I missed.

9/5

They told me to stay back again.

They don’t want me at the event, other kids got to go.

They said I’m too dangerous. I will show them.

This isn’t a child that’s neglected...this is a child that is truly dangerous, a child that needed to be contained before he caused danger.

9/8

Mom got me a new ball and dad wants to play with me but I don’t want it.

I want to make Hyunji play with me again like last time.

No one says no but mom and dad.

The page I am on has blood stains and it scares me, something already tells me the next page will be something terrifying.

I feel myself gag as I flip the page and read it...

9/9

It’s interesting.

I told dad to teach me how to perform surgery on mom.

He opened her chest and gave me her heart, I like how it pumped so I told dad to lie down too.

His heart too pumped like mom’s but it wasn’t as interesting.

I turn to the side and retch with my hand over my mouth, every detail...every line tells me one thing.

He’s the angel I should fear.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

I hear the three successive knocks and my body locks in place as horror fills my body.

I smell ocean...he’s here.