Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama-Chapter 230: Are you dying?

Selene POV

By the time I made my way down and back to the pack house, I was drained.

Back when I was just a weak wolf at the mercy of my mate, Xavier... I had wished for death night and day but to think I was going to die and didn’t want to die was funny to me.

When I arrived at the pack house, I spotted Noah and Xavier standing in front of the building, deep in conversation. Surprised at what seemed to be a familiarity I’d never seen before, I moved closer, clearing my throat as I announced my presence.

They both looked up, Noah’s face lighting up with joy when he saw me. He stretched a hand towards me and I entered it without hesitation. Our lips met as we kissed each other fervently. We would have continued kissing if not for Xavier clearing his throat repeatedly until Noah reluctantly let go.

"Where have you been? We’ve been looking for you?" he asked.

"Nowhere in particular!" I said with a smile. "I just took a stroll around the pack lands and the breeze got into my eyes and now, I want my bed and rest. So, what’s up?"

"Well, I finished the conversation with Xavier and darling, I know you don’t want this... same here but do you think you could give Xavier a little of your time? Please... he has something to say to you and...".

I felt my heart constrict as I took in Noah’s pleading eyes. It was too much to bear. "Noah," I said gently. "Xavier and I have already spoken many times. I’m not sure, what else there is to say. We have no words for each other and it’s the truth. I will only end up getting annoyed and I’m not sure it’s good for me or the baby,".

"I know!" Noah nodded, his voice pleading "Just do it for me and if you feel uncomfortable, you can always leave. He won’t stop you,".

My gaze settled at Xavier who stood silently watching the exchange. His gaze was lowered, but io could see the hope in his eyes.

Sighing softly, I started towards the garden throwing over my shoulders, "Keep up if you can,".

We walked for a while until we reached the garden chairs. Dropping into one of them, I faced Xavier again, trying to hide the emotions from my voice. "What is it you wish to say?"

He stepped forward, his hands clasped tightly in front of him. "Selene," he began. Quietly "I know I’ve made mistakes – terrible, unforgivable mistakes. But I’m asking – begging- for another chance,".

I scoffed at his words, as I felt a familiar ache in my chest. "How many times had we been here before? How many promises had been made and broken?

"Xavier," I said shaking my head slowly. "I appreciate that you’re trying to change. But I can’t risk it. You wouldn’t look after the girls well and I can’t put them through that uncertainty again. I need to make sure that they’ll be properly cared for and I’m going to make Noah their guardian... he’s attentive and all-around a wonderful man. Plus, he doesn’t have a witch for a mistress," I hissed.

Confusion crossed his face. "The girls? Making Noah their guardian? You’re talking as if... as if you won’t be here. You’re their mother and it’s fine if they stay with you until they come off age but..." he trailed off, watching quietly. "Are you going somewhere?"

I froze, realizing my slip. I hadn’t meant to imply anything about my future. Quickly, I tried to cover my mistake.

"No, no!" I said forcing a small laugh. "I just meant that when the new baby comes, I might not have time for much else. Babies take up a lot of time and energy and it’ll just be their nannies and Noah... besides, since I’m carrying the heir, I would need to travel to their ancestry birthing place and I don’t know how long it will take before I come back,".

Xavier’s eyes narrowed slightly and I could see the gears running in his mind. I had always been a terrible liar, especially to him.

"Selene," he said slowly "What aren’t you telling me? And no one gives birth in ancestry home these days. They just do it in their houses. No one goes to our ancestry homes again.,".

"I know that!" I laughed "It’s just that I want our baby’s birth to be really special. I haven’t told Noah yet but...".

"Really?" he arched his brow at me.

"Yeah," I nodded "Everything is fine, Xavier. It’s just the stress of the pregnancy and everything else. You know how it is,".

But Xavier wasn’t letting it go. He stepped closer, his voice dropping to a whisper. "Is something wrong? With you or the baby?"

I felt cornered but I tried to downplay his concern but Xavier drew closer to me, his face etched with worry. "Tell me what’s going on, Selene. Please!".

I closed my eyes for a moment, gathering my thoughts. When I opened them, I met Xavier’s gaze steadily. I wanted to tell him everything ... I wanted to tell him about my death, about everything. I wanted to tell him the real reason why I was leaving the girls with Noah instead of him.

"There have been complications..." I said softly "Not with the pregnancy, or the girls or anything. Just... a lot of things have come up. Nothing definitive yet, but...".

His face paled. "What are you talking about?"

"I also need you to promise me something, Xavier... please..." tears gathered in my eyes.

"Anything, Selene..." he whispered.

"If anything should happen to me... maybe something in the future and I won’t be around or anything. Could you not give Noah a hard time about the girls. You’re their father and no matter how much I try to keep them away from you, they’ll always find you but right now, they need to be with a parent that loves them and cares too. So...".

"What are you talking about Selene?" he pressed, holding my shoulders as his eyes searched mine. "Why do you need to make such a promise to me? What’s happening? Where are you going to?"

"So many questions!" I sighed as a tear rolled down my cheek "Just say yes... please...".

He looked at me for a few seconds before his eyes widened with disbelief...

"Are you dying?"