Substitute Wife for the Mafia King R18-Chapter 375: Always Been Him

"How is that possible? That’s ridiculous," Diana mumbled, looking quite shocked.

"I know exactly how you feel. I was very stunned and shocked when he first told me as well. Honestly, I didn’t believe it at first, but when I thought about it, I realized that he must be telling the truth. Even now, I still find it very hard to believe," I confessed truthfully.

"If what you’re saying is true, then does that mean that the Anthony we met sometime in the past could have been Bradon?" Diana asked, tilting her head slightly to the side as if playing with the idea.

"Yes, I think that’s what happened, although I have no idea when Bradon was actually taking Anthony’s place," I replied with an uneasy feeling inside. I suddenly felt an uncomfortable stirring sensation in the pit of my stomach and realized that I had started feeling extremely anxious. Diana kept on staring at me without saying a word as if she was thinking of something, and that made me feel even more unsettled than before.

"This is truly a very fascinating turn of events. I honestly couldn’t tell them apart. When I first met Bradon, I thought that it was my first time seeing him. Who would have thought that perhaps we might have met each other many times before while he was acting as Anthony? Then again, I guess it makes sense how he managed to play the role of Anthony so flawlessly when he got married to you," my sister said as she tried to connect the pieces together in her mind. I completely agreed with her deductions, so I didn’t have anything else to say. Regardless of how Diana seemed to be taking it all in, she still had a very thoughtful look on her face. 𝑓𝘳𝑒𝑒𝓌𝘦𝘣𝘯ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝘤𝑜𝑚

"What are you thinking about?" I asked before I could stop myself.

"I’m not so sure how to say this, but if Bradon took Anthony’s place sometime in the past without us realizing it, and you supposedly fell in love with Anthony around that time, then have you ever wondered who it was that you actually fell in love with?" Diana asked as she stared directly at me as if she would find the answer written on my forehead.

Her words stunned me into silence and forced me to realize that perhaps I had been trying my best to avoid that question that had already taken root in my mind. I had always thought that the person I had fallen in love with and had always been in love with was Anthony. However, without knowing when and just how often Bradon actually took Anthony’s place in the past, how was I supposed to know if the person I fell in love with was really Anthony or if it was Bradon? Worst of all, what if it was a combination of the two of them? Just because Bradon was playing the part of Anthony and acting as his brother, can I truly ignore his presence and everything that he said and did in the past simply because he was supposed to be acting in Anthony’s place?

I had no idea what the right answer was, and I was also clueless about which answer I would feel most comfortable with. In the end, I had no idea where Anthony ended and where Bradon began. The identities of the two brothers seemed so woven together that it seemed impossible for me to separate the two from each other. It did occur to me that perhaps the man I had fallen in love with all those years ago was nothing more than a phantom that didn’t exist in real life.

"I honestly don’t know. Just thinking about it gives me a headache, and it’s not like overthinking it is going to lead me to any answers," I replied, reaching up a hand to rub my throbbing temples. I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths to calm myself.

I wished the answers would come easily to me, but at that moment, I was just so confused. The more I thought about it, the more my mind conjured up memories from the past that I supposedly shared with Anthony. Naturally, I couldn’t help wondering if the one I shared those memories with was really Anthony or if he was actually Bradon.

"I agree that it’s very confusing, but don’t you think it’s possible that you’ve been in love with Bradon all along? Perhaps the one you were always in love with was Bradon, but you just mistook him for Anthony because you didn’t know better," Diana began speculating. I could tell she found the whole affair extremely interesting and amusing at the same time.

"I don’t know what to think..." I muttered, more to myself than to answer her question.

"Well, whatever happened in the past doesn’t change the fact that you are in love with Bradon right now. Of course, it would surely make me believe in karma if the one you were actually in love with all along was Bradon right from the start. They always say that the heart wants what it wants," Diana said brightly before smiling and winking at me.

Her bright and joyful mood did not rub off on me. If anything, I felt even more confused than ever before. It felt like my world had been flipped upside down, and I wasn’t sure who or what I could rely on. I had always been so certain of my feelings. I had always believed that I was in love with Anthony and that it was impossible for me to give him up. Apparently, that wasn’t so, and I ended up falling in love with Bradon after spending time and living with him. It wasn’t like I had come to terms with my feelings, but I was starting to get used to the idea. When Diana bluntly pointed out that the person I fell in love with when I was younger could have been Bradon all along, it felt like my world took another flip, and I ended up even more unsettled than before.

–To be continued...