Reborn as a Tough Army Wife-Chapter 797 - 792: Too Much Regret (Fourth Update)

Luo Dashan didn’t expect Xiutao to be like this. He was stunned, looking at Xiutao, "Xiutao, you..." 𝕗𝚛𝚎𝚎𝐰𝗲𝗯𝗻𝚘𝚟𝚎𝗹.𝕔𝐨𝕞

At this moment, Xiutao was in a state of angry humiliation. On one hand, she felt deeply embarrassed being seen like this by Luo Dashan. In truth, the last thing she wanted was for Luo Dashan to see her in such a downtrodden state.

Moreover, when Luo Dashan mentioned the past, it reminded her of how hard her life had been in these years because of those events.

Therefore, her words turned sharp, "Luo Dashan, did you come to find me just to see how I’m doing now?"

She said with a self-deprecating smile, pointing at herself, "Now you see, since I returned to the city from the countryside, I’ve been living a life worse than pigs or dogs. My husband is disabled, and my son opens his mouth only to ask for money. All these years, I’ve been begging from this household and borrowing from that one. It’s worse than when I lived in the countryside."

Luo Dashan looked at her, his lips moved as if to speak, but in the end, he said nothing.

Xiutao continued, "Will you only be at ease if you see I’m not doing well? Then let me tell you, my life is not good, it’s terrible. But it’s my own choice. I have no regrets, none at all..."

At this point, the sharp expression Xiutao had earlier suddenly vanished, replaced by a face full of helplessness, and her voice carried a lot of grievance.

How could she not regret? She had actually regretted it for nearly thirty years.

Seeing this, Luo Dashan reached out to hold her arm, also feeling wronged as he exclaimed, "Xiutao, why do you see me this way? Didn’t we have a long relationship? In your eyes, am I, Luo Dashan, such a despicable person? If I were really that despicable, when you left the child behind and vanished, wouldn’t I have come to find you in the city?"

"But I’ve never come looking for you, because I knew the difficulty of your situation. I knew you had your dreams, your own life to live. Since I liked you, I ought to make you happy. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy."

When Luo Dashan said this, Xiutao suddenly lowered her voice and began to sob. She knew how kind-hearted Luo Dashan was. Even after they had that kind of relationship, he never forced her at all, she knew.

She said all this just to cover up how pathetic her current life was.

Luo Dashan looked at her and continued, "Not just then, but over all these years, I’ve never blamed you. On the contrary, I’ve always hoped you’d have a good life, better than anything else."

After a short pause, Luo Dashan sighed and continued, "The reason I came to see you this time is that I heard my daughter-in-law mention you. I thought it wouldn’t hurt to see an old friend, so I found out your address and came to see you. But if I caused you any trouble, just pretend I was never here."

"But, Xiutao, no matter what, whether your life is good or bad, no matter how many years have passed, you’ll always be the Xiutao from back then."

"Brother Dashan..." Xiutao could no longer hold it in and started to cry, repeatedly saying to Luo Dashan, "I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I know it was too selfish of me back then. I abandoned you and our son and haven’t paid any attention over the years. I..."

Luo Dashan knew that talking about these things would surely remind Xiutao of the struggles she had over the years. He quickly stopped her, "Forget it, let the past be the past. Don’t talk about it. We’re both doing okay now."

"No, Brother Dashan, let me say it." Xiutao insisted, "I was too young back then. I always thought how great the city was and ignored the most important things in life. Later, after returning to the city, life wasn’t as I hoped. But all these years, I haven’t blamed much. I know it’s my retribution. Because I treated you and the child like that, these hardships are what I deserve."

"Actually, for many years, I’ve thought about going back to see you, but I knew I didn’t have the face to return. I didn’t have the face to face you."

Luo Dashan was a kind-hearted person. He didn’t need to hear her to know about the struggles and dilemmas Xiutao felt over the years. He never blamed her, and seeing her like this, it pained him deeply. So he smiled at her and talked about good things on purpose, "It’s okay, I know, I know everything, I don’t blame you. Besides, you’ve seen Zhiyong and Pingying, haven’t you? You should know they are doing well now."

Talking about Luo Zhiyong and his wife reminded Xiutao of what she saw then. She felt a bit of relief; if Luo Zhiyong wasn’t doing well, she would have felt even guiltier.

She thought of the tall son and his incredibly beautiful wife, smiling as she said, "As long as they’re doing well, it’s all good. If they’re doing well, I’m at ease..."

Before Xiutao could finish, a shout filled with rage came from inside her house, "Liu Xiutao, where the hell did you die to? Are you feeling wronged having to face this cripple every day, so you went out to flirt with men?"

"Coming, coming." Xiutao couldn’t help feeling deeply ashamed in front of Luo Dashan. Indeed, the most humiliating aspects of her life were laid bare to him. She stammered, "I..."

Luo Dashan was prepared and naturally didn’t ask any further. He smiled at her, "Xiutao, you should go back for now. I’m staying here for a while. It’s a place my son rented for me. If you have time, come to see me. We can catch up, or you might want to meet your son."

Luo Dashan said this and gave Xiutao his current address.

Xiutao memorized it, nodded, "Okay."

With that, Xiutao immediately turned and left.

Little did anyone know, the moment Xiutao turned around, the remorse in her heart weighed so heavily on her she couldn’t breathe. Her face was already wet with tears, though she dared not cry out loud, maybe too ashamed to do so.

As she said, the hardships of these years are the punishment for her heartlessness in the past. Everyone who makes a mistake must face punishment; she had no choice.

Watching Xiutao walk away step by step, Luo Dashan felt a sting in his heart. He truly didn’t want to see Xiutao live like this.

If he could, he would have loved to help Xiutao.

Meanwhile, from a distance, Zhou Yunmei had heard every word exchanged between Xiutao and Luo Dashan.

At first, when she heard that Xiutao hadn’t been living well over the years, even worse than in the countryside, she was genuinely pleased. She felt that she finally had something over Xiutao.

But when she saw that Luo Dashan still held deep affection for Xiutao, her face twisted with rage. Why, what on earth made this woman deserve such unconditional forgiveness from Luo Dashan?

Meanwhile, despite everything she’d done, why was she, Zhou Yunmei, treated this way by Luo Dashan?