MTL - Internet 2010-Chapter 29 pain and sea

"My mom also killed herself some time ago. She wanted to be with Dad, so I came over."

Lu Zhou glanced at Ye Qingchen and saw that she was holding a box wrapped in silk in her arms.

"I also thought about going with her. But I found it wasn't that hard. I thought it was easy to be like my mother, but it turned out to be difficult."

"The first thing I remember when I became sensible was when I was on the stairs with my senior, and only then was I innocently happy."

"I don't have any memory of my dad. My mom and I have been living in that building since they separated. She reads books, draws, and tells me their stories at home every day."

"When I started to learn to read and became really sensible, I asked her if she hated her father and why we couldn't be together."

"She said, 'Your dad is a great man. He's fulfilling his ideals, but he's afraid to drag us down, or that we're just a burden to him. So I understand him, but I can't forgive him either. All that's left is love.'"

"Does she understand him?" Lu Zhou murmured.

"I didn't dare to interact with anyone, I didn't dare to talk. When I was in school, my grandfather took me to school. I looked at my classmates and felt that they were not like my classmates, just like I felt that my parents were not like my dad. Mom."

"Later my grandfather left, and my mother started to manage the store downstairs."

"I laughed as if it was fake. I lived as if I had always lived in a cage. Then they all left, and I found out that they had already died in those years, one forgot love, the other only had love. It turns out that I have been living in the world, but I didn't dare to reach out and touch it, I was just afraid of being rejected."

She said intermittently, not as if she was telling Lu Zhou, but just to reveal everything.

"I thought I'd become like them, but now I feel bad. I also want to be happy, but I can't. I also want to have friends, but I don't dare to touch them."

"It's obvious that they are just ordinary people, and I'm just an ordinary person, why can't I live like an ordinary person."

Lu Zhou looked at Ye Qingchen, her nose was red, and the two lines of clear tears kept falling on the urn.

Lu Zhou turned on the double flash and parked the car on the side of the road. Inexplicably, he said, "I'm sorry."

She wiped her tears and shook her head.

"Go on, I'll listen."

The headlights flickered and there was a slight ticking sound, but the car was quiet again.

......

Lu Zhou sighed and picked up the phone.

"Hey mom."

"Ah son, is Xiaoye connected?"

"Connected, I'll show her around first."

"...Ah? Okay. Come back early."

"Okay, hang up first."

After Lu Zhou hung up the phone, he hit the jeep again and walked aimlessly along the road.

"Have you been to the beach?"

Ye Qingchen shook his head.

"Okay, then go."

Regardless of Ye Qingchen's changing expression, Lu Zhou drove the car directly onto the provincial road.

Half an hour later, the vehicle was on the coastal road.

The highway was built along the high slopes of the coastline. Looking out the window from the car, he could see that the sky and sea were connected together. He slowed down the car, rolled down the windows on both sides, and let the sea breeze blow in.

"how do you feel?"

Ye Qingchen was stunned and did not speak.

Lu Zhou was thinking, "At least dry your tears."

After a while, Lu Zhou drove to a beach, and he parked the car, "Go, get out of the car and have a look."

Ye Qingchen hugged the urn and got out of the car from the other side.

"Put the box in the car."

She seemed a little worried, but Lu Zhou walked over to her, took the box and put it in the car, then took her hand and walked to the beach.

At first, Ye Qingchen resisted a little, but in the end she let Lu Zhou lead her forward.

In April, there are many people at the beach, but not many people go into the water, and most of them play on the shore.

After Lu Zhou let go of Ye Qingchen's hand, he took off his coat and put it on Ye Qingchen's body, then took off his shoes and socks, rolled up his trousers, walked down the beach, and pointed to the soles of Ye Qingchen's feet. signal.

The two walked on the beach with their shoes, "You know, the sea water is sweet."

Ye Qingchen shook his head, expressing disbelief.

Lu Zhou didn't say much. After putting down his shoes, he squatted down and held some sea water with his hands, and gulped it down, his expression full of satisfaction, "Ah! It's so sweet and delicious!"

Then he encouraged Ye Qingchen beside him, "Come on, you can try it too."

Ye Qingchen learned from Lu Zhou to hold a palm of sea water. The sea water mixed with fine sand looked a little turbid, which made her hesitate.

Lu Zhou smiled and encouraged, "Try, how will you know if you don't try."

After listening, she took a small sip, but her brows slightly wrinkled.

Lu Zhou squatted down and looked at Ye Qingchen's expression, and in the end he couldn't hold back his laughter, which made her feel better.

He pulled Ye Qingchen's hand, threw the sea water back into the sea, and dragged her along the edge of the shoal.

The water danced and beat on the ankles of the two, and the two walked along the shoal.

......

I don't know how far I have traveled, Lu Zhou looked back at the footprints washed away by the sea, and said, "When I was a child, I came to the beach for the first time, and my dad lied to me like this. He also told me something at the time," You feel bitter, but in fact it has always been sweet'. Looking at the sea at the age of ten, I always thought he was talking nonsense. When I came back alone when I was eighteen, I felt that it was always bitter. Yes, the chemistry teacher said the same. Now, I feel like what my dad said is right."

He looked at Ye Qingchen, "What do you think?"

Ye Qingchen looked into Lu Zhou's eyes and said, "I don't know either. But now, I feel much better."

Lu Zhou smiled, "Yeah. Then give me a smile."

Ye Qingchen raised the corner of his mouth slightly, Lu Zhou looked at the scene at this moment, but only felt that it was a scene he had never seen in his life.

Her nose was red, her cheeks were slightly stained with tears, and she smiled reluctantly.

She is humble and insignificant, sparse and ordinary, like dust.

She has a hard shell, has her own edges and corners, and has never left too many footprints in the lives of others.

She was like one of thousands of gravels, floating with the waves under the slap of the sea.

But in this situation, between the sea and the sky, under the entanglement of the old and the new, this dust is as dazzling as a diamond in Lu Zhou's eyes.

Like there's no reason, like there's an infinite number of reasons, or it doesn't make any sense in itself. He thought leisurely.

Lu Zhou couldn't help but lightly shook Ye Qingchen's hand, then released it.

He clasped his hands into a trumpet shape and used all his strength to roar at the boundless sea.

"If the sea can take away my sorrow."

"It's like taking every river."

"All the wounds, all the tears."

"my love......"

"Please take them all."

......

Ye Qingchen, who was stunned by the side, pressed his ears, looking at Lu Zhou, who was blushing because of his hoarse voice, a smile unconsciously raised at the corner of his mouth.