Married to My Ex-Fiancé's Cousin-Chapter 919: Can’t Bear to Lose Him

"Your words are so insincere," Ji Yunhuan hardened her heart and said.

The reason why she was so cold was completely because, the moment she saw him in the downstairs living room when she came back today, she had already softened.

But at the thought of Cheng Yanxi, she was afraid of appearing too naive and thus desperately restrained herself.

Qi Cheng folded his arms, pulling her into his embrace, "You should know I’m not lying. If I could, I really wouldn’t want to care about you, but I don’t know why... Even though I don’t think I did anything wrong, when you’re angry, I feel guilty... I’m afraid you’ll never appear in front of me again. So I came to find you... Being like this, have I lost completely?"

Ji Yunhuan frowned upon hearing his words. She stared into Qi Cheng’s eyes, unsure of what to say, but in the end, she said nothing, and Qi Cheng had already lowered his head to kiss her red lips.

Words could no longer clearly express his longing for her. He only knew he couldn’t bear to lose this woman, only knew he loved her deeply... loved her so much...

Ji Yunhuan was kissed by Qi Cheng, she pushed him twice, but naturally couldn’t push him away. He seemed so domineering, just like every time they quarreled in the past... His way of asking for forgiveness was always so clumsy, but she could never refuse this kind of Qi Cheng.

His kiss was somewhat domineering, yet filled with tenderness, and entwined with his breath, warming up even her heart that had been frozen in an ice cellar for several days.

He let go of her and looked at her intently, his breath still lingering, "I came here just to tell you that I want to always be with you, want to continue living together with you."

"..." To Ji Yunhuan, these were probably the most beautiful words of love.

His desire to continue living with her, to be with her, meant more to her than any sweet words.

She leaned against the wall, looking at Qi Cheng in front of her, "And what about Cheng Yanxi? Will you send her away? Can you give her up?"

She still couldn’t ignore this issue.

It seemed that as long as his answer didn’t satisfy her, there was no need for them to continue the conversation.

Qi Cheng looked at Ji Yunhuan and said, "She means something different to me. Maybe you want me to stop caring about her in the future, but I can’t. At least, I will strive to ensure her safety."

"..." Ji Yunhuan turned her head, avoiding his gaze.

Qi Cheng said, "Like this, are you unwilling to tolerate me? If that’s the case, then I want to ask, is there a place for me in your heart? If there is, how can you make me so sad?"

"The one truly sad is me." Ji Yunhuan looked at Qi Cheng, "Do you know how sad I am right now? If it were the Qi Cheng of the past, he wouldn’t keep another woman by his side, making me sad. Besides, Cheng Yanxi is not just anyone, she is your first love, your first girlfriend. She has a special meaning to you. Your concern for her makes me, as your wife, truly embarrassed and in pain."

Qi Cheng looked into Ji Yunhuan’s eyes, through the moonlight, he could see her inner turmoil, the wind was blowing her long hair, with some strands sticking to her face...

Qi Cheng reached out, gently smoothing them back, looking at Ji Yunhuan, "I thought that by trying hard, we would have more opportunities, but it turns out I was too naive. I’m sorry, from now on, I will control myself and won’t appear in front of you again."

He finished speaking, and let go of her...

He would rather give up on himself and choose Cheng Yanxi.

Ji Yunhuan felt her heart ache intensely.

Watching him make such a choice, she was undoubtedly the saddest person.

The atmosphere on the balcony was terribly awkward. Qi Cheng left Ji Yunhuan, ready to leave. Ji Yunhuan watched him turn to go, and a sense of sadness surged up, like countless needles pricking her heart. She stepped forward a few steps, grabbed Qi Cheng’s hand, and hugged him from behind as he was about to leave, "Qi Cheng, you bad man."

"..." Qi Cheng stopped, feeling Ji Yunhuan holding him, her body trembling violently.

She couldn’t tolerate having another woman around him, but she couldn’t bear to lose him this way.

She knew that if he had his memory, he wouldn’t make such a decision, but he had lost his memory... this wasn’t his fault.

She didn’t know what to do.

After all, she couldn’t make him remember everything in an instant, she could only wait, painfully wait for him to recall all the things.

Ji Yunhuan’s face leaned against his back, finding his back was still as broad and full of security as before. Although the Qi Cheng in front of her wasn’t worth relying on, she couldn’t let go of him, she couldn’t bear to let go here.

"Do you know that you’re really bad, really bad like this? How can you give up on me again and again for another woman? You’ve clearly said that in this world, you only love me! You’ve said that no one is more important than me in your eyes, but Qi Cheng... now, you can’t do any of this. How can you forget all the words you’ve said to me, how can you forget your promises to me? You’re really bad, do you know that?"

Qi Cheng remained silent because Ji Yunhuan’s voice was so sad that he felt anything he said now would be adding fuel to the fire, so he simply said nothing.

He held the two hands she had around his waist, her hands were icy cold, soft without bones...

He really hoped that at this moment he could remember everything, maybe he wouldn’t keep doing things that made her sad.

Ji Yunhuan returned to the room, lay on the bed, feeling truly exhausted, Qi Cheng sat by her side looking at her, she reached out, covering her eyes, "Stop looking at me, I just cried, I look terrible."

She realized that ever since she met Qi Cheng, she had shed far too many tears for him. You must know, she used to be such a cold-blooded person!

Yet he completely changed her.

Qi Cheng grabbed her hand, saying, "Yunhuan, I didn’t intentionally want to make you sad. I just... feel that Yanxi saved me, and I want to repay her kindness. She’s a weak woman, if I don’t help her, what would she do?"

"The Qi Cheng of the past wouldn’t care how unrelated people were doing." Ji Yunhuan glared at him, feeling really unwilling, at this moment, he actually dared to mention Cheng Yanxi.

"Yes, it’s all my fault." Qi Cheng admitted resignedly, he didn’t want to lose his memory, he didn’t want to be like this.

Ji Yunhuan looked at his guilty face, sat up and said, "Forget it, I don’t care what happens between you and Cheng Yanxi in the future, but you have to make it clear to her that you are helping her just out of sympathy, definitely not because of feelings. Moreover, she is not your girlfriend, you two never had that kind of relationship. She’s just a woman who once abandoned you!"