Legendary Oops System-Chapter 61: How to Forget

It was similar to a valley expanse.

There was a lower wildlife with some areas filled with green grasses, and some were garden with flowers of various colors.

In between these grasses, streams of water shining with a bizarre purple light from their depths lined the field like giant snakes.

White could see the source of those purple lights from the streams. It was because of the purple stones on the river bed.

Breeze blew through rhythmically and the sound of it all created this harmonious symphony that made his heart crawl to a quiet rhythm creating an unexplainable feeling through him.

It led him to sit by the edge of the hill too, besider her.

"It’s peaceful, too...and familiar."

He said and it caught Nova’s attention as she asked.

"Familiar?"

"Yes. It seemed like that place in your mind space." He said and she paused quietly.

"Well, except this obviously opens to something great while that one is an abyss."

He added and she smiled quietly before withdrawing quietly into her knees.

Silence stretched between both, before it was broken by the question.

"Do you ever think about them?"

Nova suddenly asked, her eyes looking down at the valley beneath.

Confusing as her question was, White understood from the underlying sadness in her voice, and her body language.

Only one thing could cause that.

"Not often."

He answered.

"Did you dislike them when they were alive?"

"No. I never did."

He answered and it was the truth.

White didn’t dislike his parents. He loved them.

"I’m guessing there’s no day you ever went to bed without thinking about them?"

He asked with a smile and it brought a smile on her lips too.

"Actually, there was a time when I tried to forget about them. Tried to stop thinking about them." Nova said, continuing,

"I’m sure you must know how that went?"

"Yeah, I know. They’re not something you just...forget."

"I know right. It was a foolish decision."

She admitted but he didn’t agree.

That...she could see by him shaking his head.

"Your mind, if in pain will consider all sorts of conclusions to stop the pain, and choosing to forget definitely seemed like a viable option. I wouldn’t call that foolish."

"It’s wrong though."

"Yes, but not fully wrong either."

He said and her brows knitted quietly.

"What do you mean?"

"Parents dying are a deeply painful thing. Choosing to forget them seems like a viable option, until you discover trying to forget them is like trying to forget you ever existed."

"But...if you think about it all the time, you’ll always be sad, and If you think about their deaths forever, then, you’ll be sad forever."

"But you also can’t forget."

White mused, gaze drifting slowly from the valleys to the purple night sky.

"So, what do you then?"

She asked, and he turned to her saying.

"You remember them less."

She giggled at the trick answer.

"You can’t be real."

She answered.

"It’s actually true, though."

White said.

"Oh really?"

She asked with an eyebrow raised.

"Yeah. If thinking about something hurts you, and you can’t forget, then, just think of it less."

"And how exactly do you think of it less?"

Nova asked.

"Hmmm, maybe start with figuring what they would want you to do if they were still here, then focus so much attention on that."

"So much so that after getting exhausted doing whatever that is, your mind drifts back to them and instead of feeling sad, you think, I’m doing what they’ll want. They must be proud of me."

He said and a gleam crossed through their eyes.

"That won’t fully stop the sadness, of course, but it’ll give you the space you need to do the next important step."

He said and her curiosity was piqued and she asked.

"And what’s the next important step?"

"Happy memories."

White responded and Nova finally couldn’t hold it back, laughing out loud.

"Happy memories?"

"Yes. Think about it.’

’If you can turn your sadness from guilt, to I’ll try to make them proud. You have more space in your heart for more emotions. If you don’t fill them up, there’ll be only sadness taking up that big space."

"So you need to fill that space up with something new. Something opposite sadness. I call them happy memories."

"And what would White consider a happy memory?"

She asked with interest, and in that moment, his face took on a change, his cheeks widening until they form a wild evil grin,

"YOU!"

Nova called out and White quickly snapped out of it.

"Huh?"

"You! What were you thinking about?"

She asked and White smiled wryly.

Actually, the first thing that came to his mind when she mentioned a happy memory was him ripping out the spine of Draugr from his back in cold blood.

"It is a good future memory, let’s just put it that way."

"Something evil."

Nova asked, and White smiled.

"I’d prefer to call it a necessary evil."

She rolled her eyes to that.

"What about you. What would you consider a happy memory?"

Nova thought about it and in the end nothing came to mind, she could only shrug saying—

"Anything that doesn’t make me feel sad, I guess."

"Mmmm, so something like..."

White said pausing and giving her a curious look.

"Something like what?"

She asked.

"Something like kidnapping me from my dorm room and bringing me out here?"

He asked and a quiet red appeared on her face.

"You...You don’t like it?"

She asked, looking down at her feet only for a finger to tap on her forehead.

"Oww!"

She yelped in pain.

"Who said anything about not liking it?"

White said, looking at her pouting her cheeks from the pain, along with the slightly red mark on her face from his finger tap.

All of it created this adorable picture that made him laugh.

"It’s not funny, hmph!"

She said with a hmph, as he laughed louder, but then she remembered why she had brought him here in the first place.

"Actually, I dragged you here to see something."

She said and he paused looking around him.

"There’s something else even more breathtaking than this view?"

"Actually, there is."

She said standing up and pointing at something.

The sight of her made White pause in confusion for a moment before

"Wait, you mean!!?"

HAHAHAHA

"No way. No way."