I can upgrade the shelter-Chapter 620 - 518 Mo Qingyan’s Thoughts

After taking some personal items for herself and her sister from the completely frozen old home, and having emptied the wine cellar from the past, Mo Qingyan reluctantly glanced back at the home she had put so much effort into creating, before leaving with Chen Xin.

Although she was reluctant to leave her home, Mo Qingyan knew she was very fortunate.

When the disaster began, she could think of ways to fight it with friends and hide in the shelter she built to survive the first wave of calamity, without being displaced like others.

And after the disaster, she could rely on her stored provisions and the help of her friends to live a stable life with her sister, not having to face the daunting uncertainty caused by the calamity.

It can be said that the situation of Mo Qingyan and Mo Qingxin sisters was much better than most people, especially after the global cooling; they could move to Chen Xin's place and weren't frozen along with the old home.

Though in some sense, moving to Chen Xin's place cost Mo Qingyan more than her and her sister going to the official shelter, yet for Mo Qingyan, having a place that provides a sense of security in this post-apocalyptic world is immense happiness.

Even though living in the state's official shelter might not be so bad, and the country is recovering and improving day by day, Mo Qingyan felt that many people might not mind sharing a husband if it meant living like she does now.

Only, this goes against social morals and national laws.

However, both Mo Qingyan and Qin Lan genuinely liked Chen Xin, and after open discussions, they accepted each other's presence and were willing to share.

This avoided a lot of unnecessary trouble.

In Mo Qingyan's view, such a relationship is not a big deal. As long as they can accept it themselves without affecting others, it's a mode of interaction that can reduce many unnecessary conflicts and allow all three to achieve happiness.

Even though initially she also felt it wasn't quite right, after spending more time together, Mo Qingyan found it to be okay.

She didn't have to feel hurt over Chen Xin choosing Qin Lan, nor would Qin Lan get jealous over her liking Chen Xin, and Chen Xin wouldn't feel torn between her and Qin Lan.

Despite never before revealing to Chen Xin that she liked him.

But now, she no longer needed to worry about these issues, for she had become Chen Xin's girlfriend and was with him, with the approval of his parents, leaving other concerns aside.

Living happily together was what Mo Qingyan most wanted.

It's just the other matter Qin Lan discussed with her that made Mo Qingyan a bit concerned. 𝓯𝓻𝒆𝙚𝒘𝓮𝙗𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝒍.𝙘𝓸𝙢

That is regarding marriage and children.

Sure, she didn't mind living this way with Chen Xin, even without the title of marriage or without children.

But Qin Lan seemed to care a lot about this.

For Mo Qingyan, affected by an unhappy childhood family, although she wanted to find a good man, she felt indifferent toward marriage, even not wanting to marry at one point.

As for children, she had an indifferent attitude and felt that if she couldn't give a child a complete family and love, there wasn't really a need to have one and let it endure the pain brought by parents.

Yet, on this matter, Qin Lan, who always appeared independent and strong, showed a very traditional side.

She preferred to marry, have children, and take care of husband and children like a traditional woman.

Of course, it didn't mean she wanted to be a traditional housewife.

Qin Lan is a strong-minded woman; in personal matters, she's equally strong. She doesn't believe a woman should abandon family for career or that marrying is a sign of weakness.

Instead, she thinks that achieving both family and career is a true display of strength.

This was one of the reasons why she and Chen Xin broke up earlier due to personality incompatibility.

Qin Lan was too strong-minded and unwilling to compromise when facing Chen Xin.

However, no matter how strong, after causing her comrades' death and losing her hand, her confidence shattered.

Merely the comrades' deaths wouldn't have completely stripped Qin Lan of confidence.

Unfortunately, she lost the arm crucial for a sniper, the most important pillar supporting her confidence, which was the primary reason for her loss of confidence.

This was one of the reasons why she once contemplated suicide; her inner beliefs collapsed, and she lost all hope, making the idea of giving up life not unimaginable.

Although later Chen Xin made her a prosthetic and healed her, the already collapsed beliefs were hard to rebuild for Qin Lan.

Fortunately, Chen Xin gave her new support, rekindling her hope for life, which helped Qin Lan drop thoughts of suicide.

But this also made Chen Xin replace what was initially her career focus, becoming her new mental pillar.

This made Qin Lan devote her entire heart to Chen Xin, altering some aspects of her personality.

This led to her, upon discovering Mo Qingyan's feelings for Chen Xin, contemplating letting Mo Qingyan also become Chen Xin's girlfriend, sharing a man with her rather than competing as before.

Qin Lan never talked about these thoughts with anyone, but Mo Qingyan, having known Qin Lan before Chen Xin, and their often open talks as women, could perceive Qin Lan's changing mindset.

Especially recently, as Qin Lan discussed with Mo Qingyan several times about children's growth matters, making Mo Qingyan even more aware of Qin Lan's current mindset.

But on this point, Mo Qingyan preferred to follow fate and didn't want to force Chen Xin to make a decision.

If Chen Xin wished to have children, both she and Qin Lan could have a child and raise them.

After all, they still had the conditions to raise a child, remaining unaffected by the harsh environment, and could raise a child.

Regarding children's growth issues, Mo Qingyan, although also very concerned—and in some sense, more so than Qin Lan—didn't want to push Chen Xin to choose.

Perhaps her childhood experiences made Mo Qingyan understand that raising a child is a shared responsibility of a couple, and if one party is coerced, happiness is hard to achieve in the end.