Glory Of The Football Manager System-Chapter 328: The Aftermath I: The Table

My world had stopped.

The roar of the crowd, the chaos of the final whistle, the triumphant march towards our fans... it all compressed into a single, silent point of focus. The tablet. Sarah was holding it out to me, her hands trembling slightly, her eyes shining with a wild, impossible light. The screen glowed in the twilight of the stadium, a beacon in the gathering dark.

I read the table once, twice, a third time. The numbers swam, refusing to settle, refusing to make sense. It was like trying to read a foreign language, a language of dreams.

7th. Crystal Palace. 51 points.

The air left my lungs in a rush. I looked up from the screen, my eyes finding Sarah’s. My mouth was dry, my own voice a stranger in my ears.

"Is this right?" I whispered.

"Everton lost to City," she said, her voice a choked, ecstatic murmur. "Three-nil. It just finished. And Arsenal drew. And Spurs drew." She took a sharp, shuddering breath, her professional composure finally, beautifully, breaking. "Gaffer. We’re seventh. We’re in Europe. If United win the Europa League final."

The word Europe landed like a thunderclap in the sudden silence of my mind. It was a word from another universe, a word that belonged to other clubs, other managers, other, grander stories. It was not a word that belonged to us. Not to a team that had been sixteen points from safety, a team that had been written off, a team that had been broken.

Zaha, who had been standing closest, heard it first. His usual swagger, the easy confidence of a man who knows he is the best player on the pitch, was gone, replaced by a look of wide-eyed, almost childlike disbelief. "Wait," he said, his voice sharp, cutting through the haze. "Wait, what did you say?"

I found my voice, louder now, turning to face the rest of the team who had gathered around us, their faces a mixture of exhaustion and confusion. "Seventh," I said, the word tasting strange and wonderful on my tongue.

"We’re seventh in the Premier League. Fifty-one points. And if United beat Ajax on Wednesday, we’re in the Europa League third qualifying round next season."

For a moment, nobody moved. The information was too large, too improbable, too beautiful to process all at once. It was like trying to drink from a fire hose.

Then Scott Dann, my captain, my rock, the man who had thrown his body in front of a hundred shots over the last five months, let out a sound that was somewhere between a laugh and a sob.

He covered his face with both hands. James McArthur, standing beside him, just stared at the ground, his jaw working silently, a man who had run himself to the bone for this club and was only now beginning to understand what it had all been for.

And then Wilfried Zaha, the most naturally expressive man on the planet, let out a roar that echoed around the empty stands of Old Trafford like a thunderclap. He grabbed Benteke by the shoulders and shook him.

"EUROPE!" he screamed into the big Belgian’s face. Benteke, who had been the picture of exhausted composure, broke into a wide, beaming, almost childlike grin. "Europe," he repeated, as if tasting the word for the first time.

It was Zaha who started it. He turned to me, and before I could say a word, he grabbed my arm and pulled. Then Dann was there, and McArthur, and Tomkins, and Wan-Bissaka, and Eze, and Kirby, and every single one of them, the substitutes, the coaches, the kit men they all surged forward. I felt hands grab my legs, my arms, my jacket. And then the ground disappeared from beneath my feet.

They were tossing me. Up and down, up and down, my arms flailing, my tie flying over my shoulder, a laugh ripping out of me that I had no control over whatsoever.

I was twenty-seven years old, the manager of a Premier League football club, and I was being thrown into the air by my players in the middle of Old Trafford. The irony was so perfect, so beautifully savage, that I couldn’t help but laugh harder. The Theatre of Dreams, emptied of its red army, now belonged to us. We were dancing on their stage.

From somewhere in the corner of the ground, the remaining Palace fans, who had been watching all of this unfold with their phones still in their hands, finally found their voice. The chant started low, then built, then crashed over us like a wave.

"Danny Walsh! Danny Walsh! Danny Walsh!"

I was set down, eventually, breathless and dishevelled, my suit jacket half-off my shoulders. I looked at my players, their faces flushed and grinning, their kits soaked with sweat and effort, and I felt something so profound and so simple that I had no words for it.

Pride. Not the brittle, defensive kind I had carried around for most of my life, the pride of a man who had something to prove. This was the warm, settled, unassailable kind. The pride of a man who had done the thing.

"Right," I said, straightening my jacket, trying to recover some semblance of dignity. "Let’s go thank those fans properly."

We walked towards the away end together, a ragged, exhausted, magnificent group of men. The Palace fans, all few hundred of them, were pressed against the advertising hoardings, their arms outstretched, their voices hoarse.

I saw faces I recognised. The man with the red scarf who had been at every away game. The group of lads who had driven up from Croydon in a minibus.

A woman in a Palace shirt who was crying openly, not bothering to wipe her face. These were the people who had been there when we were losing four in a row. These were the people who had never stopped believing, even when the rest of the country had written us off.

I started to clap. The team joined in, a slow, rhythmic, unified beat. We stood there in front of them for a long moment, just acknowledging each other, the fans and the players and the manager, bound together by something that no league table or trophy could fully capture.

The echoes of their singing were still ringing in my ears as I walked into the different kind of arena that was the Old Trafford press conference room. The journalists were packed in, their laptops open, their questions already loaded.

The story had changed in the ninety minutes since kick-off. It was no longer just about a young manager getting a result at Old Trafford. It was about a fairytale. It was about a club that had been four points from relegation, managed by a man who had been coaching teenagers six months ago, potentially qualifying for European football.

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