Glass Hearts [BL]-Chapter 248: Screw That Stupid, Lying Sex Freak[June’s POV]

Chapter 248: Screw That Stupid, Lying Sex Freak[June’s POV]

I stared at Ren’s message for a moment.

I didn’t want to bail on him. I really didn’t.

My hands were shaking, but I typed anyway.

Me: Hey... I don’t think I’ll be able to make it today. I’m really sorry. I’m just... not okay today.

I pressed send before I could overthink it.

A part of me felt relieved. Another part of me felt like a horrible person

I’d just disappointed the one person on Earth who doesn’t deserve my mess.

It didn’t take long before the three dots popped up.

Then his reply came in:

Ren: Oh...

It’s okay, jellybean. I understand.

I’m sorry for pushing you. No pressure.

I understand if Ian doesn’t want us around each other.

Take care of yourself, okay?

No. I disappointed him.

I groaned into my pillow.

Why was he apologizing like he’s the problem?

Why was he assuming Ian gets to dictate what I do?

I wiped my face angrily.

"Ian doesn’t want us around each other?"

That line just kept replaying in my head.

He doesn’t want me around Ren?

The same he who was out there lying to me, cheating, knocking other girls up, and calling babies "trash"?

I was furious.

My chest kept heaving from the bottled up anger.

And then, suddenly, every part of me snapped into place.

"You know what?" I whispered into the room, sat up straight, wiped my face, and hissed:

"Screw Ian."

I stood from my bed, ignoring the cramps stabbing my waist, and walked to my mirror.

My face looked puffy, my eyes were red.

"Screw that stupid, lying sex freak."

I grabbed my phone again and sent Ren another text.

Me: Actually...

Can you come pick me up from home?

I left school early to sort out something.

I’m free now.

My thumb hovered for only one second.

Then I hit send.

I took a shaky breath, whispering to myself:

"I’m going to Ren’s."

I gathered the energy to stand, dragging myself toward the bathroom.

As I closed the door behind me, Ian’s face popped into my head.... every lie, every smile, every touch I thought meant something.

I panicked instantly.

I turned on the tap and splashed cold water on my face. It didn’t help the burning in my eyes.

How could he look at me like that... 𝒇𝒓𝙚𝒆𝔀𝓮𝓫𝒏𝓸𝙫𝓮𝓵.𝓬𝙤𝙢

And then go touch her?

"He lied to me," I whispered. "He lied straight to my face."

A tear slid down my chin.

I wrapped my arms around myself because I suddenly felt cold.

I thought of the night at the beach outhouse.

It was all lies. Everything he said, every sweet word, just so he could fuck me, and then toss me aside like I meant nothing.

My chest ached.

"I was so stupid," I whispered. "So stupid to trust him."

I walked out of the bathroom wincing in pain.

I reached for my phone on the bed.

A new message lit the screen.

Ren: Aii’t, I’m on my way.

Get ready in 10.

"Phew..."

Ten minutes.

I pressed a hand over my chest, trying to breathe...

"God... Ren is going to see me like this. I can’t let me see me looking miserable."

I grabbed the nearest hoodie and pulled it over my head, the sleeve got stuck for a second.

I dragged it down, smoothed my hair, tied it back, untied it, tied it again.

"Get yourself together, June!"

Few minutes later.

Ren’s car pulled up in front of my house right on time.

When I stepped outside, he was already waiting. Leaning against the car, with his hands tucked into the sleeves, looking calm in that soft, quiet way he always did.

When his eyes met mine, his shoulders relaxed a little, as he smiled softly.

He didn’t say a word.

He just opened the passenger door gently and gave a tiny nod.

The ride was peaceful.

Soft music played from the speakers.

The kind that made your chest loosen a little.

Halfway there, his voice broke the quiet.

"Earlier... you said you weren’t okay." He paused, for a moment. "Are... are you feeling any better?"

I shook my head slightly, biting the inside of my cheek. "Yeah. I’m fine," I whispered, knowing it was a lie.

When we reached his house, he walked ahead and held the door open for me.

"Come in," he gestured softly. "Do you want something to drink? Water, tea... anything?"

"I’m fine," I shook my head. "Let’s just practice, and get it over with."

We started going through the song.

He sat at the piano and began to play gently, letting me ease into the music without a word.

But when I tried singing, my voice cracked and trailed off.

At one point, I completely lost track of where we were in the song.

I just stared at the paper like it wasn’t blank, and didn’t move my lips.

Ren slowed the melody, then stopped playing entirely.

He stood and walked over, his hand lightly brushing mine as he took the sheet from me. I didn’t fight it.

"June..." he said, softly. "You’re really not okay, are you?"

I shook my head, trying not to let my tears fall.

"You want... something to eat?" he asked again. "Even just a cookie or some water?"

"I... no. I’m okay," I shook my head, trying to keep it together.

"Really? Nothing?" he asked gently.

"No! I..." I flared up, louder than I meant to, "No! I already said i don’t want anything from you!" My voice cracked, and I immediately buried my face in my hands. "I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to come out like that..."

Ren paused, then slowly reached out, brushing a loose strand of hair behind my ear. His eyes softened so much it almost made me melt.

"Hey..." he whispered. "It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize for being human. Yelling at me? That’s fine too. You can even scream if you want, just don’t lock it all in there. I promise I’ll still think you’re amazing."

After a moment, I sighed, and decided to ask the question that had been gnawing at me. "Can I ask you something?"

He nodded, raising his eyebrows in curiosity.

"What... exactly do you also want from me?" I whispered.

His eyes widened, like he wasn’t expecting that. "Huh? I don’t understand," he said softly.