Bound to my Enemy-Chapter 176.

"Did you know?"

Her brows knit together slightly.

"Know what?"

My eyes don’t leave her face.

"About Claire."

Margaret doesn’t answer right away and that silence does something unpleasant to my stomach.

I keep watching her just watching.... I try again my voice comes again, a little steadier this time.

"Did you know she and Zane..."

The words get stuck in my throat for a second.

God, I hate even saying it out loud.

"...that she was his girlfriend? Or whatever thing they had"

Margaret exhales slowly, tht reaction alone tells me more than any words could. A bitter feeling creeps into my chest but I push past it because that wasn’t the part that hurt the most.

My gaze stays locked on her.

"Did you know Zane asked her to be my friend?"

"Did you know... she had something going on with him?"

"I know Claire," she says slowly.

"She used to come here often."

That part makes my stomach turn...used to come here, tp this house, to his space.

Margaret continues, her voice still calm.

"But I don’t know anything about... their relationship."

She pauses slightly before saying the last word. Careful with it, like she doesn’t want to say the wrong thing and make this worse for me.

I just stare at her... trying to read between the lines, trying to figure out if there’s something she’s not saying but there’s nothing there... just honesty.

And that somehow makes everything hurt more, because it means this whole thing existed... quietly around me, without me ever knowing.

I let out a small breath that shakes halfway through.

"Okay."

That’s all I say.... Just okay.....: like that one word can somehow hold everything I’m feeling right now. It doesn’t, nor even close.

My vision starts to blur again and ar first I try to blink it away.

I press my lips together and my head back slightly... anything to stop it but it doesn’t work.

The tears come anyway.....: slowyl at first, then they become heavier. Mt chest tightens again, the same way it did earlier, like something is sitting on it and pressing down.

I turn my face away from Margaret, I don’t want her to see this again. In this short space of time I’m I’m tired of crying, tired of feeling like I can’t hold myself together but the tears don’t care about that.....they keep falling, quitelt at first, then my breathing starts to hitch and I know I’ve lost it again.

Margaret doesn’t say anything this time, she just moves the mattress dipping slightly as she sits beside me, then her arms come around me slowly like she’s giving me time to pull away if I want to.

I don’t and the moment she touches me, something in me just... gives. I lean into her without thinking. My face pressing against her shoulder and the crying comes harder now. Not quiet anymore.

My fingers clutch weakly at her clothes, I don’t even know what I’m crying for exactly anymore.

Everything maybe?

Claire....:: Zane and all the lies.

The years I thought were real, the way my life suddenly feels like it has cracks running through it.

Margaret’s hand moves up to my hair and she smooths it gently over and over again.

"It’s okay," she murmurs softly.

"It’s okay, child..."

Her voice is calm and steady as i shake my head against her shoulder.

Because it doesn’t feel okay, nothing about this feels okay but I don’t say that. I don’t have the energy to argue it, so I just cry and she holds me, she doesn’t rush me or try to make me stop.

She just stays there, letting me get it out. Little by little, the crying starts to wear me out.

My breaths slow a s the tight feeling in my chest loosens slightly and my grip on her clothes weakens.

The room feels softer somehow and quieter

Suddenly my eyes feel heavy.... Too heavy.

I don’t even notice when my head shifts more comfortably against her shoulder, when her hand slows in my hair or when my breathing evens out completely.

Sleep creeps in quietly with warning and no fight left in me to push it away before I even realize it...:::. I’m gone into deep sleep. 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝙚𝙬𝓮𝙗𝒏𝙤𝒗𝙚𝙡.𝒄𝒐𝓶

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A few days have gone by since the whole mess with Claire and j haven’t really stepped out of this room much.

It’s like I’ve carved out a small space for myself here and decided I’m not letting anything from the rest of the house touch it. Mots of my time is spent on my bed with my phone in hand, scrolling through social media.

Or I read... not really because I’m interested in whatever book I pick up, but because it gives my mind something else to focus on. Something that isn’t... well everything else.

The room ha has started to feel familiar again and Safe, in a way. Like before I started sleeping in his bed, before I started thinking I understood him even a little. Now it just feels like I don’t know anything at all.

I’ve only seen him once in four days.

And honestly? I’m glad.

That one rime in the hallway was enough....

I had just come out od the training room when I turned the corner and almost ran straight into him.

He stopped.

I stopped and for a second we just stood there looking at each other.

His eyes moved over my face like he was trying to figure something out...likr he was trying to read m.

I didn’t give him anything... not a word, not a even a reaction. I just walked past him like he wasn’t even there. My shoulder brushed his arm slightly as I passed.

I didn’t apologize, neither did I slow down, I didn’t even look back.

And he didn’t stop me.....didn’t try to explain anything.

That was four days ago. And since then, nothing. Which is exactly how I want it.