[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl-Chapter 190: Routine

NICK

At 8:00 AM, I stepped into the OR.

This was the only place where the world stopped screaming. It’s sterile. Controlled. Quiet. The blue drapes and the bright lights create a sanctuary where the headlines don’t matter.

Here, I could finally breathe, almost. The only thing that matters is the anatomy in front of me. The work.

During surgery, I was always focused. Actually focused. My hands were steady, my mind finally quiet. That was the only time I felt almost normal, tucked away from the expectations of my parents and the resentment for my brother.

The procedure was routine, a complex reconstruction that I could do in my sleep.

I’m good at this. Not because I love the "art of healing," but because I have to be. In my family, failure isn’t an option. Mediocrity is a sin.

As I sutured the fascia, a thought came to me, unbidden and sharp.

I don’t save lives because I’m kind. I don’t do this to be a hero. All that bullshit people say in interviews, the "calling," the "passion", it’s all fake. It’s a script we write to make the gore of medicine palatable to the public.

The reality is much simpler. My father told me medicine would make me successful. He told me it would make me respected. He told me it would make me worthy of the Bennett name. So I did it.

I never asked if I wanted it. I never asked if I liked the smell of cauterized flesh or the sound of a heart monitor. Happiness wasn’t part of the equation. It was about utility. It was about being a high-functioning tool for the family legacy.

I felt a surge of hatred then, buried deep beneath the sterile gown. Hatred for this job, for this life, for the choice that was never actually a choice.

But I’m too far in now. I’ve built a life on a foundation of "should" and "must." I wouldn’t even know what else to do if I stopped. This is it. This is Nicholas Bennett.

I tied off the final suture and stepped back.

"Close for me," I told the resident.

I walked out of the OR, stripped off my gloves, and felt the weight of the world settle back onto my shoulders before I’d even reached the scrub sink.

Another day. Just like the last.

...

The surgical theater is the only place where the world makes sense, but the cafeteria is where the reality of my life comes to rot.

I sat in a corner booth, a rare luxury in a day measured in six-minute increments. I had a tray in front of me, some kind of grey protein and a pile of wilted greens. I was chewing, but I wasn’t tasting. The act was purely caloric, a mechanical refueling for the machine that bears my name.

"Quite a week you’ve had, Bennett."

The voice was seasoned, gravelly, and saturated with a patronizing warmth that didn’t fool me for a second. I looked up. Dr. Raymond Carmichael, the senior cardiac surgeon, was standing there.

He was in his late fifties, a man who had spent three decades being the sun around which this hospital orbits.

Now, he was looking at me, the twenty-six-year-old who just eclipsed his thirty-year career with one high-profile surgery, and he was struggling to keep his smile from curdling.

"Just lucky timing, Dr. Carmichael," I said. I kept my voice humble, the perfect tone for a rising star who knows how to play the game. I deflected. It’s safer that way.

"Fame fades quickly in this profession," he said, pulling out the chair opposite me without being invited. He sat, leaning forward. His smile didn’t reach his eyes; it stopped at his teeth. "What lasts is discipline. What lasts is the grind after the cameras stop flashing."

Translation: Know your place, boy. You’re a flavor of the month. I’m the institution.

I felt a surge of bone-deep irritation. I was still in my scrubs, still vibrating from the adrenaline of a six-hour reconstruction, and I was bleeding a kind of confidence I didn’t even want. I looked at him and let a small smile form, slow, deliberate, and entirely disrespectful.

"I’m not worried about fading," I said.

That was it. I didn’t raise my voice. I didn’t list my publications or my success rates. I just let the statement hang there, loaded with the weight of my own inevitability.

Carmichael’s jaw tightened. He knew I wasn’t playing by the old rules. But then, I caught movement behind him.

His wife, Dr. Evelyn Carmichael, was sitting at a nearby table with a group of administrators.

She worked in hospital admin, a sharp woman with a mind for logistics and a marriage that looks like a Cold War treaty. She was watching us. Specifically, she was watching me. When I spoke, she didn’t look at her husband. She looked at the way my mouth moved. 𝕗𝕣𝐞𝐞𝘄𝐞𝚋𝚗𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗹.𝚌𝕠𝚖

I noticed. Of course I noticed. I’d spent my life observing the microscopic shifts in people’s eyes. Carmichael saw me notice. He saw the way his wife’s attention lingered on the man who was currently dismantling his ego.

A hollow, ugly sense of superiority settled in my gut. It wasn’t triumph. It wasn’t joy. It was just a cold fact.

I was younger, faster, and I had the eyes of the woman he couldn’t satisfy.

But the feeling didn’t fill the hole in my chest. It never did. It just made the air in the cafeteria feel a little thinner.

At 2:30 PM, the OR sanctuary was traded for the sterile, fluorescent tedium of clinic hours. Follow-ups. Consultations. Pre-ops. This was a different kind of exhaustion, the exhaustion of people.

Every single day, it happened. At least one patient, usually more, looked at me with that wide-eyed, starstruck expression.

"You’re from the news, right? The one who saved the governor’s wife?"

They’re excited. They’re proud for me, a total stranger claiming a piece of my success to make their own lives feel a little more proximity-adjacent to greatness.

"No, I’m not," I said, lying smoothly as I checked a man’s surgical incision. "Must be someone else. I get that a lot."

I said it with a straight face, a practiced deflection. They never really believe me, the name on the badge is right there, but they let it go, charmed by my "modesty."

I spent the next three hours nodding, explaining, and comforting. Anxious families clutched my sleeves. Grateful mothers tried to hug me. Emotional fathers shook my hand with bruising force.

I don’t care, I thought as I explained a recovery timeline for the fourth time that hour. I don’t care about your relief. I don’t care about your fear. I just want you to leave so I can sit in the dark for five minutes.

I smiled anyway. I used the "empathy" voice, the one with the soft edges and the steady cadence. It’s a tool, no different from a scalpel, and I use it to keep the line moving.