Alpha's mate is a male?!?-Chapter 104: Want Him Now Than Ever!

"Ace..."

Kieran takes a hesitant step forward, but before he can say another word, Ace snaps.

Something inside him breaks open, like a dam that’s been holding back a flood for too long.

Every emotion_ pain, anger, longing, betrayal_ comes rushing out all at once. His voice trembles, but his words are sharp, cutting straight through the air between them.

"That was before? Do you now realize what you did to me before?! Do you realize what you’ve done to me?" Ace’s voice is hoarse, his chest rising and falling with each heavy breath. "Do you?!"

Kieran doesn’t answer.

He just stands there, frozen, like he knows he deserves every word that’s about to come.

"Do you actually remember that you left me in the woods after mating me? After marking me?! I didn’t even know what I was_ I was scared, confused, and you knew that I didn’t know! That I was confused! But what did you do? You just disappeared! Do you know what it was like to wake up alone, feeling different, knowing something had changed but having no one to explain it to me? I had to figure everything out on my own. And then, when I finally started to understand_ when I started to think that maybe, just maybe, there was something real between us_ you tried to trade my soul like I was nothing! Like I was some kind of... some kind of tool you could use and throw away!"

His voice cracks at the end, and he hates himself for it.

Kieran flinches, his jaw tightening, but he still doesn’t speak. He just listens, like he’s letting Ace tear him apart.

"You threw all the disgusting words at me! You talked highly of yourself how you would never be with me because I was disgusting to want to be with a man! You said you were happy that our bond was severed, that now I can go to whoever I wanted and leave you alone! And after some days... in your study, you let me talk, you let me diminish myself infront of you! Confessing my love for you! It was hilarious for you to see me helplessly in need of you! So you even pitied me and had s*x with me...!"

"Ace, I didn’t pity you. I honestly wanted to do it with yo..."

"Let me speak! Don’t even dare say a word to me! You don’t get to say a word to me, telling me how much you want me now! Do you remember what you did after we had that s*x, Kieran?"

Kieran stays quiet, dreading. It hurts himself remembering that day.

"I asked you a question, do you remember?"

"Yes" he answers, his voice barely above a whisper.

"What did you do?" Ace asks, his eyes welling up more.

"Ace..."

"Stop calling my name, I asked a question!"

"I... I told..." Kieran stutters for the first time in his life. He can’t bring himself to say what he did because it feels like someone is twisting a knife at his heart.

He feels like when he lets those words out of his mouth, he will never be able to forgive himself for what he did to Ace.

And when he doesn’t answer, Ace walks past him but Kieran stops him. "Ace am really sorry, please."

"You know... the worst part of all this is that..." Ace’s lips tremble, his eyes burning. "Even after all of that, after everything you did to me... I still wanted you. I still want you even now! Is this some kind of a curse? Or punishment from the moon goddess?! What did I do to deserve this?!.... Why? Why was I going crazy_ thinking that you left and you might never return again! Why was I loosing control thinking that I can never see you again? That I might never be with you ever again?!" He lets out a hollow, bitter laugh. "I hate myself for it. I hate that I can’t bring myself to wanting someone else but you! I wish I could just erase you from my mind, never think about you again. But I can’t! No matter how much I try, no matter how much I tell myself that you don’t deserve me_ I still find myself wanting you."

Kieran’s breath stutters. His hands clench into fists at his sides, his entire body tense like he’s barely holding himself together.

Ace shakes his head, swallowing the lump in his throat. "So tell me, Kieran_ what the hell am I supposed to do with that?"

Silence.

Then Kieran moves.

He steps forward, closing the space between them, his hands trembling as he reaches for Ace but stops just short of touching him.

His voice is rough, raw. "Sorry can never ease the pain I caused you, I know that." It’s barely a whisper, but there’s something in his eyes_ something broken, something desperate.

Ace swallows, but he doesn’t pull away. For some reason, he feels lighter after letting out all that.

"I hate myself for everything I did to you, Ace" Kieran continues, his voice shaking. "I wake up every day thinking about it. About you. About the way I hurt you. And you’re right_ I don’t deserve you. I never did. But I swear to you, Ace, I cannot live any longer if it’s not with you. Not for a second. I don’t want this to sound like an excuse_ but in my whole life I never knew a man can be with another romantically, I never knew a man can crave another man the way am craving your closeness right now. I never knew the moon goddess would put male and male together. All along I knew I wanted you, Ace. I knew I was always jealous when I saw you with Xiao Jun, but I couldn’t bring myself to accepting that fact.

Ace, if I could take back every single thing I did to you, I would. But I can’t. All I can do is..." He exhales shakily. "All I can do is tell you that I love you, and I don’t want to lose you again, please." For a moment Ace freezes quietly when he sees tears playing on Kieran’s eyeballs.

Kieran seems to be pushing them back. Trying really hard until he can’t anymore, they flow down his cheeks.

~The once feared and strong Mighty Alpha just cried infront of him.

Kieran doesn’t even bother to wipe the tears.

He wants to forget his title right now and just be a regular man who is helplessly in love, a man who wants to get his man back.

Ace’s breath catches.

He feels like he’s standing at the edge of a cliff, staring into something unknown, something terrifying_ but also something that still feels like home.

He doesn’t say anything. Instead, he moves.

Slowly, hesitantly, like he’s afraid of breaking, he leans into Kieran’s warmth. And this time, when Kieran’s arms wrap around him, he doesn’t pull away.

Maybe they’ll never be able to erase the past. Maybe the wounds will never fully disappear.

But one thing is undeniable, they will never live in peace without each other. They will always want each other.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s enough_ Maybe the past doesn’t matter anymore, maybe they need to focus on healing from it_ focus on a new beginning.

Ace’s hand snakes up to Kieran’s cheek, wiping at the tears that are still streaming down.

Kieran holds Ace’s palm on his cheek, not letting go, his eyes closed.

"I really love you," he whispers, "Just saying the words_ doesn’t expression what I really feel inside for you. The words don’t touch even a bit of emotions inside of me." Kieran adds.

Ace is quiet, he finds himself standing on his toe, holding himself onto Kieran before planting his lips on Kieran’s.

Kieran pulls him so close that Ace has no space to breath. And when Kieran returns the kiss, it takes all the breath away.

Just by Kieran’s movements_ it tell how much he wants to feel Ace _ in and out_ he knows he has suppressed desires, he knows it might be dangerous when they dare have s*x right now. And yet he cannot control himself. freewёbnoνel.com

His movements are impatient, yet not rough... he walks Ace towards the wall. His whole body brushing against Ace’s.

His breath is so heavy that it makes it hard for him to breath. His c**k is hard as a rock, it’s paining him. Making his whole body ache. And Ace can feel it through his trousers.

_*When Kieran was away_ trying to get Ace out of his mind_ he found a man, a man that he wanted to use so that he can get Ace out of his mind. But no matter how much he tried, he couldn’t get hard.

He ended up leaving that man untouched, same as women.

But here he is, as hard as a rock before he is even touched.

"Just a minute." Kieran says, his voice pure sighs.

Before he leaves for the bathroom, he locks the door and enters the bathroom with the keys_ just incase Ace starts overthinking about why Kieran just left him like that _ incase Ace decides to go away.

In the bathroom, Kieran tries to regulate his desires, his emotions, his needs_

He wants to cum several times before touching Ace, maybe it might help him to stay under control when he touches Ace.

But even as he tries, he is unable to cum_ it stands attention _ as if mocking him. As if telling him_ "Ace only can affect me!"

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Quiz○○○

Do you guys remember what Kieran did to Ace after that moment in the study?