After Rebirth, the Celebrity Daughter is the Medical Expert!-Chapter 37: Childhood Shadows

Chapter 37: Chapter 37: Childhood Shadows Editor: Atlas Studios

Thinking of her parents’ marriage in the past life, Ning Youguang couldn’t help but feel a bit gloomy inside.

Her world, in an instant, felt as if the snow from the sky wasn’t falling on her body but had settled into her heart, cold enough to chill a person to the bone.

She shuddered all over, let go of Xia Youqing’s hand, and wrapped her arms around herself.

Young couples and each other’s first love, Ning Yi and Xia Youqing could predict the beginning of their relationship, but not the ending.

At the beginning of their love, neither of them knew that "being together" did not entirely represent fulfillment for love, but it also represented a beginning, a beginning that meant endless possibilities for the future of love. 𝕗𝕣𝐞𝐞𝘄𝐞𝚋𝚗𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗹.𝚌𝕠𝚖

It might mean holding one heart until old age without separation, or it could be half a life of storms and half a life of scars.

They happened to be the latter.

Couples in love don’t necessarily continue to get along well just because they started off passionately.

Xia Youqing and Ning Yi’s marriage failed because they did not know how to get along.

Apart from the sweetness of romance, as their days together went on, their relationship turned disastrous, and they could easily find disagreements and conflicts over various matters.

How much patience can young people truly have?

No matter how fervent the love accumulated in their youth was, it gradually cooled amidst growing conflicts in the days that followed.

They couldn’t go on, but for many reasons, they couldn’t separate either.

Thus, two people who couldn’t find warmth in each other were drawn to the sugar-coated poison of affection offered by others, each running wildly down the wrong emotional path into an endless abyss they could not return from.

In the past, they loved, they hated, they argued, they fought, they despised each other, cursed each other, betrayed each other, but they also supported each other and made peace...

Clearly, they were the closest people in the world, yet they displayed the darkness of human nature in each other to the fullest extent.

Were it not for being their daughter, Ning Youguang could not imagine such a glamorous couple could reveal so much of human nature’s dark side in each other.

The cruelest part was that they let their beloved child see so much of this darkness without any concealment.

How ironic is that?

Yet, sadly, for a long time in her past life, she didn’t understand that her dysfunctional family was already riddled with problems. Had she thought a bit for herself, she should have endured the pain to cut herself off from this rotten piece, instead of tightly holding a virus-ridden piece of decay against her bleeding heart, vainly hoping to nurture it alone back to health, ultimately leading her to grow wildly with a massive black shadow of illness, in pain for a lifetime.

Sadly, despite her efforts to make this decay better, ultimately the decay abandoned her from afar.

In her past life, when her parents divorced, Ning Youguang initially resented them as well.

But later, she blamed no one.

Because she knew it wasn’t easy for them either.

Can we say they didn’t do their duty as parents?

No, we can’t. They were just two giant babies.

In her past life, beside Xia Youqing, she would often hear her complain about all sorts of shortcomings in her father.

At that time, she didn’t know how to properly look at the intimate relationship between her parents, always thinking her mother was the weak one, and blaming her father as the wrongdoer, feeling much dissatisfaction towards him.

Even though later her father, having grown older, tried various ways to please her and be good to her with the realization of being a parent, she still remained lukewarm, keeping the father-daughter relationship from being close.

In her past life, one thing that left her uneasy was that despite pouring all her passion and love into Xia Youqing, their mother-daughter relationship didn’t become any closer.

Xia Youqing would fall in love when she wanted, marry when she wanted, and have children when she wanted, never considering her thoughts and opinions.

Later, she understood.

The main responsibility for the breakdown of her original family lay with her mother.

Miss Xia was, to put it nicely, self-centered.

To put it bluntly, selfish, only thinking about herself.

But can she blame her?

No.

After all, not everyone loses their mother at seven months old.

Growing up without maternal love, she wouldn’t know how to love.

She was also a pitiful person.

Always feeling others were unfair to her, that her misfortunes were caused by others, not realizing that the source of her misfortune was herself, as she lacked the ability to love.

And what about her as a daughter?

She was also a product of the cycle of lacking motherly love, having a mother but not receiving true motherly love.

Xia Youqing didn’t not love her; she just didn’t know how to love her.

Just like a person cannot demand another to give them something they do not possess, for example, she couldn’t ask for love from Xia Youqing.

So, she carried the grievances of her past life for twenty to thirty years, ultimately healing herself and learning to love herself.

However...

Ning Youguang thought somewhat amused:

What about her?

No matter how hard she tried to grow, her emotional experiences in her past life remained blank.

It’s really hard to say if she would pass on this inability to receive maternal love to her next generation.

Thus, upon being reborn, the first thing she did upon waking was let her parents divorce and decided not to interfere in any of her parents’ future emotional affairs.

She had spent a lifetime trying, with no regrets left.

Years of experience told her.

People, all have their cycles of fate.

If someone does not want to be part of this cycle, they must save themselves, for even gods and Buddha have no cure.

After letting go of Xia Youqing’s hand, Ning Youguang fell silent.

Xia Youqing, always inattentive, was not very perceptive of the emotions around her. Moreover, after getting in the car, she was busy looking at her phone, sending texts.

Unaware that during the short trip, a tsunami had erupted in her daughter’s heart that no one knew, raising massive waves and burying her in a dark abyss.

"Miss, where to next?" The driver, having securely placed the food box in the car’s trunk, sat down in the driver’s seat and turned to ask Xia Youqing behind him.

"I don’t know, you ask Youyou." Xia Youqing replied without looking up.

"Miss Youyou?" The driver had no choice but to look at Ning Youguang.

"Check your phone, see if there’s an animal shelter nearby; we’ll go feed the animals." Ning Youguang said absentmindedly.

"Ah, check for an animal shelter on my phone?" The driver was a bit troubled, as he seemed unable to understand what the young miss was saying.

Seeing the driver’s confused expression, Ning Youguang then realized that this was not yet the era of widespread smartphone use.

At this time, phones could only be used for calls, texts, and playing small games, not for web browsing.

"Oh, sorry, I said it wrong, just drive around, and we’ll stop when we see an animal shelter."1314