The Tyrant's Wife - Chapter 2 - Giving Up

Soul Mechas were forged to punish the Eldritch Monsters that attack this world from Beyond the Glass.But they can only be powered by those who bond with ancient mythical souls from that world.Unfortunately, souls are only attracted to negative emotions: helplessness, anguish, and loss. The deeper and more wronged, the better.However, regardless of the empire's pressure on the people to produce the best Soulbound Warriors and the heavy stigma from his father's curse, Soren remains a happy boy, a dreamer.Until he ends up with the worst soulbond in history after 'The Touching Glass Ceremony.' An F-rank soul. Trash even amongst trash. Even the commoners laughed when his rank was called. Beggars in rags celebrated and claimed to be above him.But was it really the worst soul bond ever?Because, when an Eldritch monster ravages their town and kills all that he loves, Soren finds himself repeating the same day again and again, bathing in unimaginable pain and death that forces him to grow, evolve, and confront questions that plague the empire, his father's mysterious curse, soul rituals, and the Eldritchs' true goals on earth.Each loop leaves him HUNGRIER, stronger...but less human.As the lines between man, soul, and machine blur, Soren must decide the very fate of the world...

The more ruthless the Palace is, the more miserable the loser will end up—this he understands. But what he does not understand is, why the brother whom he lived together with peacefully in the past, would so heartlessly humiliate him today. Asking him to beg for mercy, asking him to succumb to his knees, and even… asking him to tactfully entertain him. “Yong Shan, ah, Yong Shan, as of today you are the one who qualifies to succeed as a Crown Prince, what exactly is it that you want?”

For the past 16 years, Yong Qi’s gaze was never set on him. Despite being twins with his younger brother, Yong Lin, Yong Qi has always been directing his smile and laughter towards Yong Lin, and to him, Yong Qi deliberately alienates him. He does not understand, they have the same features and looks, and he obviously is his brother too, but why won’t he be intimate with him… as if he is humiliating him. “Yong Qi, ah, Yong Qi, why won’t you understand, what I want is very simple…”

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Arriving in a fantasy Otherworld, Gauss obtains an Adventurer's Handbook that grows stronger the more monsters he slays and collects. Gauss originally thought he was embarking on a classic adventure to defeat the Giant Dragon, kill the Devil, and save the kingdom. Yet, seeing goblins breeding like pests and multiplying endlessly, along with the fast-growing kill count and rewards in the Monster Atlas, his face grows increasingly helpless...“You have slain 1000 goblins! Intelligence +1, Strength +1, Constitution +1.”“The title 'Goblin Slayer' has upgraded to 'Goblin Expert'. You are an expert on goblins; few know better than you how to kill them.”“...”“The title 'Goblin Expert' has upgraded to 'Goblin Star Destruction'.”

I have experienced all the eight sufferings of this world.

I do not ask for nirvana, but for you.

Wild and hard-to-tame demon (gong) x cold, ascetic and childish immortal (shou)

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